Newcastle Night Out- 21 going on 40
Posted 08-09-2008 at 10:28 AM by EndGame
For any of you in the UK, you might know about Newcastle. Its one of, if not the best party city in the north, has ranked in the top 10 party cities in the world and I am lucky enough to live 40 minutes away from it.
Tonight I go see my friends for a 21st birthday. I haven't seen most of these guys for months, and others weeks. One of them is even getting married. MARRIED! 21! I couldn't do it.
I see people out drinking that I remember when they were knee-high to a grass hopper. They're out shagging, drinking and fighting. Its funny. I'm the "older guy". Its depressing going out these days seeing all the 18 year olds out. Lol.
I feel so old. Old before my time. My mother and girl friend worry about me. I think I am due to have my first mid-life crisis in the next couple years.
I am the most socially in-active in my group. I live the farthest away from the city, and I am yet to be able to afford my own place closer to the "scene". For this reason I feel a bit left-out. This naturally happens. And what is more, I used to be the centre of that social circle, and now I am on the outside looking in.
It doesn't help that I have to drive to these events as well. I can't drink. So I can watch drunk people having an awesome time. I don't know, I just feel socially inept at these events some times. Weird really.
This used to be my circle of friends, but now, they are nothing more than acquaintances. Most of them anyway.
My offline business partner is there, but I suspect he sees me as his business partner only. I get the impression that as far as being a mate goes, he doesn't see me as much of one. Which is good, business and friends really don't go together some times, but in a way, it is dissapointing.
Really, a night like tonight, should be a massively fun experience that I can throw myself into. But for some reason I just can't do it anymore. I don't really drink, so even if I wasn't driving, I probably wouldn't drink much. I guess I just don't see the point in reducing myself to an infantile state AND pay for the privilege to do so. Besides, I have got a lot of work to do for my clients tomorrow.
Youth is wasted on us young people. I wonder how much longer I will be calling myself a "young man".
I guess its time to grow up, and move on. From here on out, life gets serious. Maybe its time I did too.
Tonight I go see my friends for a 21st birthday. I haven't seen most of these guys for months, and others weeks. One of them is even getting married. MARRIED! 21! I couldn't do it.
I see people out drinking that I remember when they were knee-high to a grass hopper. They're out shagging, drinking and fighting. Its funny. I'm the "older guy". Its depressing going out these days seeing all the 18 year olds out. Lol.
I feel so old. Old before my time. My mother and girl friend worry about me. I think I am due to have my first mid-life crisis in the next couple years.
I am the most socially in-active in my group. I live the farthest away from the city, and I am yet to be able to afford my own place closer to the "scene". For this reason I feel a bit left-out. This naturally happens. And what is more, I used to be the centre of that social circle, and now I am on the outside looking in.
It doesn't help that I have to drive to these events as well. I can't drink. So I can watch drunk people having an awesome time. I don't know, I just feel socially inept at these events some times. Weird really.
This used to be my circle of friends, but now, they are nothing more than acquaintances. Most of them anyway.
My offline business partner is there, but I suspect he sees me as his business partner only. I get the impression that as far as being a mate goes, he doesn't see me as much of one. Which is good, business and friends really don't go together some times, but in a way, it is dissapointing.
Really, a night like tonight, should be a massively fun experience that I can throw myself into. But for some reason I just can't do it anymore. I don't really drink, so even if I wasn't driving, I probably wouldn't drink much. I guess I just don't see the point in reducing myself to an infantile state AND pay for the privilege to do so. Besides, I have got a lot of work to do for my clients tomorrow.
Youth is wasted on us young people. I wonder how much longer I will be calling myself a "young man".
I guess its time to grow up, and move on. From here on out, life gets serious. Maybe its time I did too.
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