what motivates you

Do you know what motivates you .. or do you have to implement artificial means of motivation.. that need regular reinforcement in order to do you any good.

I use to be a heavy gamer ..but in the last year everything out there lost it's appeal.. i am not really lazy when i can or have put 16 hours a day into a game for weeks at a time ..and when i am not gaming and want to learn about a subject i can consume 3 or 4 books a week ..now i watch as many youtubes and listen to as many interviews by authers as possiblw when a subject interests me ..

I have always had bad dietary habit and eaten a lot of junk food but until i hit 30 a few years ago i stayed in decent shape .. then last year i had to start cooking for my elderly parents and learned i could cook .. and it is totally different from my mothers cooking style .. which is why i was prone to eating fast food instead of her cooking ..

Now as I put my life back together and start to rebuild .. I look over my past activities and wonder what i got out of gameing.. and when i worked what things i liked about the jobs and drove me to do a good job ..

for me i am finding money is not a real motivator.. having stuff is not a real motivator ..and power is not much of a motivator ..and being the absolute best is not a motivator ..

my own main motivators involve thing where i can do and make mesurale rapid progress while having fun or at least while the jumps in progress seem worth the time involved .. i find i am not really motivated to be rich but to find a way to always have enough money to do things that i enjoy doing that i feel like i can get better at doing ..Interestingly up to this point i have been able tp make progress on several thing with almost no money .

Now though my environment is very toxic for my progress on many issues in my life and i need enough money to get in a different environment that i can set up to support my growth ..and improvement ..

I won't complaint about the environment i am in now as it's purpose in my life was to beat me up until i chose to grow out of needing to be beat up to grow ..if i had moved anytime before I would have gone with me and ended up building another environment around me that beat me up ..

so my main motivation are growth and surrounding myself with support ...interestingly enough this is what i got from playing mmorpgs..now it is just grasping the confidence to start leveling up in real life