I do not really know WHY I am writing this post in the first place, I guess my unconscious mind is seeing some long-term benefit from it and driving me to write it.
Although, there is one benefit from writing this post: I am admitting my humanity by being public.
I have in the past posted a picture on myself because I was extremely insecure about my looks (I thought I looked like a down syndrome retard, no offense), but then I was told that I look average which made me realize how wrong I was about myself and my self-image.
Now, I why am I admitting about me not being a millionaire (yet)?
One reason is simply this: research shows that when humans are experiencing life-crises most men do NOT seek social support whether offline or online, many men lock themselves in trying to solve the problem themselves, often making the problem even worse.
Women tend to seek social support and since I do not want to end up committing suicide because locking myself in and getting into a psychotic situation, I seek social support now both offline (I will call my mom later today) and online.
And my other reason why I am writing this is; if you are in debt like me, then you will understand...
It just struck me today that I need to pay back $261,153 to the government because of loans and housing benefits that I did not really need which they found out later on.
I received two letters two days in a row saying "pay back or die", ok, not exactly like that, but you get the point.
Then I suddenly realized, "Here I am, MaxTheMarketer, a self-claimed Internet Marketing expert who CANNOT afford to pay back loans?".
Why am I in the world claiming to be an internet marketing expert if I cannot afford to live and even pay back my loans? Btw, my loans are from the government when I studied on the university 5 years ago and I did not get a regular job because I was swept into the world of internet marketing.
A friend of mine introduced me to it several years ago and he even said, "Hey Max, here you have products of $50,000 value to go through, watch everything and implement it!".
I consumed all the material I had been given for free and it really changed my way of thinking about life AND internet marketing.
It also taught me one important life-lesson that I am experiencing doing right now: "implement things and don't just 'mentally masturbate'".
Mental masturbation is btw NOT a joke, it is something many people suffers from, and when you admit it you gain more willpower over yourself and your life.
So, why in the world am I still writing this post? There is really no point of it, except the social support I might receive in terms of empathy and maybe some great tips.
Of course, "kick-ass approach to life" would say, "stfu and get a life already, dude!" and during life-crises when the inner ape is screaming in pain and short-term seeking, it is not always that easy.
The motivation is just not there in the same way as it is when you feel confident, secure about your current economy...
Ok, so enough whining from me. I will stop writing now.
I just wanted to say: I am NOT a millionaire yet, I am working on it but I do NOT want to become a millionaire by scamming people. I want to make money by helping people.
I want to not just receive money from people, I want to receive success-stories from them.
I have a vision that I will create an amazing blog site (oh, my thought-process is changing now, cool) with tons of marketing tips, tricks, how-to guides but I will NOT claim yet that I am an internet marketing expert because then I should be able to show my paychecks and NOT saying that I am in debt (LOL).
I do not really see the point of self-claiming oneself being an "expert" in marketing as the first thing when you get into the world of internet marketing?!
Why would you try to make money by telling other people how to make money? Now, THAT'S scamming in a nutshell, so just stop it!
The free material I received from my friend has taught me this amazing mindset of money: you receive money from people when you provide them with what they perceive to be of high value.
So, what kind of high value can I offer people?
- eBook Formatting
- English/Swedish Translations
- Psychology Education
- Consumer Behaviorism
Why am I still writing? My emotions are going up and down like menstruation (no offense, ladies, just a man's bad joke).
I wrote because I admitted that I am NOT a millionaire and that I am in actually in a worse situation than ever in my entire life and I just wanted to let it out publicly so other people can feel better about themselves AND I can let go of the manly pressure of needing to appear like an alpha male who never has any problems in his life whatsoever (screw that shit, people).
I am regular human being, I have needs, including needs of social support during crises and I hope I will receive that in terms of empathy etc.,
I tried to invite people to Mastermind groups but somehow people are just not committing (wtf?!).
So, let's help each other, let's be honest with each other, let's be more transparent with ourselves and others.
By making more people less scam-focused and more help-focused, the future of internet marketing will get a better reputation and people like me do not have to suffer economical damages because selling is getting harder as more scamming is occurring which makes people distrust the industry of buying online.
Ok, I need to really stop writing now, as I am hungry and I need my lunch now. So, off I go, to eat and watch some StarCraft 2 GSL (NEEEEEEEEEERD!).
Thank you very much if you have read all of this. Feel free to share your own crises you have managed through OR if you just want to comment calling me out being a weak individual (individualism vs collectivism, here we go!) ^^,
Take Care & Have An Awesome Weekend, Fellow Warrior! / Max "MaxTheMarketer" K.
P.S. Yes, I admit that I am also an attention-whore but I have managed to post very RARELY on Facebook because most of my posts are just stupid attention-whore seeking posts like "Oh, I was at the toilet, AWESOME!!" or "look at me (random picture of me having a life)".