Don't wanna screw up again!

I guess I should really introduce myself...

I have been a long time lurker - rare poster. I was scared to death a couple of years ago on ********** and have never fully recovered

A little background info:

I have twin boys that were born premature. Divorced their father when they were 3. I really scrapped the bottom of the barrel when I found him. His only major accomplishment has been to seize the top spot as the biggest deadbeat dad in my county. In their, 17-years of life, he's supported them with right at $5800 total.

I'm not bitter, I do realize I can take full credit for the fine young men they have become. Due to health issues from being premature, they are still in high school. One is a Jr. one is a Soph.

When my boys were 4, I began working from home. On a wing and a prayer, I took a position that wound up paying me far more then I could ever earn in any local position I was qualified for. I worked in sales and marketing for a micro-niche dating site. I was very happy there for a few years until the owner got married, the wife got greedy and fired the full staff, all 4 of us.

Following that, I began working for a couple of contacts I'd made. I worked as a virtual assistant and generated over 700 pages of content in under 7 months.

During that time, I set up my first website. I learned affiliate marketing and the benefits of selling other peoples stuff. That site grew to earn an average of $3,000 a month and the last 2 years I had it, I never even touched it.

When the global blogging network b5media opened its doors, I landed a blogging position with them that grew to 3. I took such pride in being the 21st member on board. That position grew into becoming channel editor managing as many as 80 writers globally.

I remarried an old high school sweetheart late 2003. He was great. Had two jobs, supported himself and his kids - I didn't have to worry because I had my hands full raising my own alone. One month after getting married he threw his back out, had surgery and never worked another day after that - even though the doctor released him to do so.

In June 2008 my house "that blogging bought" flooded terribly in the horrible Midwest floods. At that time I read the Problogger book and discovered a formula to calculate a websites worth. I realized I was sitting on a nice chunk of online Real Estate. I listed my website for sale and in 7 days it was done. I'd sold my site for just under $100,000.

With that money, I was able to recover my house from the flood, put a down payment on a new home for my kids and me and basically buy my way out of a horrible marriage to a bum who refused to work and the courts thought he was entitled to continue with a lifestyle he'd grown accustomed to.

Feb. 2009 b5 started closing up shop laying people of in masses. I lost my job.

Since then I've worked a few gigs here and there - landed a nice part-time job that pays the bills - but in the last couple of months I've received notice that my hours are being cut to a fraction of what they were and one gig is going away altogether.

I'm finding myself in a tough spot again! I know it's the way of working online - I'm not letting it get me down. I know when one door closes, another opens. Been there, done that a few times and have a nice collection of t-shirts.

So here's the thing - I have what I believe is a great idea. I've got it pieced together in a nice complete package with everything anyone would need to get the system up and running.

My problem is I know this is one of those things where I have to do it right. I can't screw up! I don't want to let fear get in the way and not launch it at all - but I don't want to do something wrong and maybe lose my spot on WF - or worse, present it in a way that gets it taken and repacked by someone else. I've been burned too many times and find it tough to trust.

I do feel very positive about this and even while my hours are being cut, my gigs are being canceled and my twins birthday is coming up on the 25th - I know I can do this!

I've been around long enough to know that I need help. I need someone to show me how to do this - I want to introduce my first WSO. I want to offer it to a few people for free to get feedback.

It's stressful never knowing with the axe is going to fall. I want to maintain a standard of living that my boys and I have known - it's not a fancy life - it's a very modest comfortable life complete with coupon clipping, at home haircuts, pride in going into Goodwill -- you get the picture.

If you've read this far - God love ya! I really do appreciate it! I really needed to get this off my chest and in a place where people "GET IT" - I know there are more out there like me and this seemed a logical place to start.

Thanks for reading - I sure hope some of you can provide insight into getting this product rolling or even know of a gig/job I might be a good fit for. One can ever have too many eyes watching out for them.

Cheers,
Gayla