Child Molesters - adults only

Heres my personal experience with a child molester.

They say that here in New Zealand one in ten children is sexually assaulted by an adult.

This is widely regarded to be an accurate estimate as most of these people are multiple offenders.

However most of them are not apprehended. Most of them do not even go before the courts.

I'm gunna tell you bluntly about my personal experience with this.

When I was 12 years old my parents marriage was about over - fights all the time etc.
There were 7 of us kids and me and my younger sister are 10 years younger than the rest.

So anyway the folks were having a fight as usual and I decided to go out for a walk and get away from it at about 6 pm.

By about 7pm it was getting dark so I made my way down an industrial street to get home faster. I noticed some dude walking some distance behind me perhaps 200 meters.

Being a 12 yr old kid out at night without permission this got me a bit scared so i thought about hiding until this person was gone. I told myself - no everything will be OK.

That was one of the worst decisions of my life.

I looked back behind and this dude was now jogging - it was pitch dark, no street lights at this end of the street. Next thing BAM this ****er grabbed me from behind and started to suffocate me around the throat.

This dude was pretty big, about 28-30 ish. I was immediately in shock - thought he was gunna pull out a knife and stab me to death right then and there. That sort of thing did happen in my town so I was convinced this was to be the end of my life.

I was in shock and on an adrenaline rush - started punching, kicking, screaming like crazy.

I fought that ******* with everything I had for about 15 minutes.

This dude was trying to strangle me to death, he smashed me in the face and I was bleeding from my nose. He kept telling me to shutup and he was going to kill me etc.

Finally I had no more energy and was paralized with horror. I was trembling with shock.

This sick ****er dragged my into an empty lot and lay down on top of me. I still thought he was just gunna pull out a knife and slit me up.

The came the worst, sickest realizaition you can possibly imagine. This mother ****er actually had an erection.

I was 12 man, and I aint gay. Prior to this moment I thought I was just gunna be murdered.

Christ why me !! How the **** could I get out of the situation ?

There was a house nearby and I could see them looking out the window to see what was going on - they could have saved me man - but they did not.

I hated those people for many years.

Ok so then the pervert started his sexual shit. He wanted to rape me , take photographs of it at his house and then kill me. This ****er dragged me behind some buildings stuck his hand down my pants, tried to perform oral sex and forced his finger up my ass.

Meanwhile I am terrified out of my mind, convinced I am about to be raped up the ass and murdered.

So by now an hour has passed since this nightmare began. I start pleading with this ****er to let me go. Oh yeah - he stuck a bag over my head that was from the local abattoir.

Anyway I couldn't flee or fight so I had to use psychological tactics to escape.

I also got some clues to this ****ers identity. I lived in a small town of 4000.

He slipped his first name by accident, he knew my brother, my dad had taught him at school. Later that proved to be enough.

Anyway I finally escaped, convinced this asshole I would meet him in a week and he could molester me and my school friends.

I got home at 11 pm - my mother was waiting, I just said "a queer got me mum".

It was so horrible.

We got the cops immediately. I was made to give statements over and over until 4am. They took all my clothing as forensic evidence.

Police policy with rape complaints at the time was to treat them as false during the first 1-2 hours. That's exactly what they did. Finally they conceded that I had indeed been attacked by a child molester and began an investigation procedure.

The child molester knew were I lived and in the following week began to phone my house.

I was having nightmares every night. Had them for 3 years after that. Anyway the cops cooked up a plan that I would meet the child molester the following week at night in the park.

They would use me as a guinea pig then swoop in and catch him.

To cut a long story short they ****ed the operation up, chased him for a mile with dogs and spotlights and he escaped.

The following week me, my dad and brother got talking about the clues he had given to his identity.

He said my dad had taught him at school, he was about 28-30, his name was paul, he knew my brother who was about the same age.

Dad went through his school records and there was only one person called paul that was a match. Dad told the cops and they got this dude in for questioning.

I could not give a clear visual ID that would stand up in court because this guy had put a bag over my head so they let me listen to his voice.

I had seen his face but it wouln't have stood up in court.

It was him 100% without any doubt. The dude that tried to murder me was Paul Hogan of kaikohe.

But without a visual ID it was not sufficient. Turns out this guy had raped about 10 kids.

Some of them became my friends later. One became my best buddy, we were gunna whack this dude. My friend actually knew him from the gym but was too terrified to report it to the cops.

As an adult he is still too freaked by the whole thing to tell the cops.

Anyway, I became a drug addict and a street kid for a few years after that. It ****ed my life up totally for about 7 years.

Justice was not done.