My name is Jason, I am new to the Warrior Forum and very excited to be here.
I spent the entire year of 2018 getting my life back in gear from a devastating 7 year breakup, multiple losses of family members, and crippling depression. But I, along with 2019 am here and happier than ever. I am 29 years old and probably like most people here, hate their job and want to be freed from being a 9-5 slave. The problem for me is that I have no idea where my passion lies.
I went to a school called Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University in Arizona, I didn't choose to go to this school, it was mainly my parents decision since I was young and stupid, having no idea what life was about. My degree was called Global Security Intelligence Studies and I minored in Middle Eastern Studies. The studies varied between history, politics, geography, and government so it was pretty broad range. Most students who graduated were expected to join a government agency like the NSA, CIA, or other three letter acronym, which is what I grew accustomed to as well. The agency I applied to constantly was called the National-Geospatial Intelligence Agency or the NGA for short. I cannot remember how many times I applied to this place, but approx over 200 times, with no response.
I took my first job out of college at my towns local Assessors Office were I learned about taxes and property values and soon worked my way into the Geographic Information Systems department because it was closer related to what I studied and had at least something to do with geography. I worked at that place for two years before a private defense contractor called BAE Systems finally decided to hire me working for them in Pittsburgh. My position was a Geospatial technician and I thought that this was it, I had made it! This job ended up being the most God awful, boring, tedious job that I have ever done. I was devastated and decided to move back to Arizona and work for the Assessors Office again, this time in Phoenix, a much bigger city than I was in before.
This was, I would say the approx time period I began to change. I started reading books by Tony Robbins, Tim Ferris, and Napoleon Hill. My entire mindset began to change and it was like seeing the world for what it was for the very first time. I wanted to do this, I wanted to be just like them and do what i wanted, when i wanted, and with whom I wanted to do it with. My problem is that I don't know what my passion is, I have the same skill set as anyone going out and trying it, I am good at a lot of things, but not great at any. I try to focus on one thing and just study that, but end up getting bored or realize i didn't like it as much as I thought. I have tried different methods of finding my passion all the way from what makes me the most excited to listing my strengths and weaknesses. I have joined Meetup and am doing activities now I never would have imagined myself doing. I have joined Bumble and meet new friends who I tried connecting similar niches with, it just seems like nothing excites me enough to take that jump and do it. I do have an insane passion for music, particularly for classic rock, I absolutely LOVE bands like AC/DC, Led Zeppelin, Billy Squire, and Metallica. Currently, I spend a lot of time meditating and trying to find my passion that way.
I am just lost right now and any help at all would be greatly appreciated. Sorry for such a long intro post, I got a little carried away.