My journey to finding the Warrior Forum, and the current state of affairs.
Life, Love, and Internet Marketing
Posted 28th July 2009 at 01:07 PM by Jill Carpenter
I did it. I left a 7 year personal relationship. It was during this relationship that I found IM and that many things have happened.
I am not sure where I am going at this time - literally.
I am broke, homeless, car-less, spouse-less, and my only goal at this time is to just get back on my feet.
I have failed several times now with my business. Some say that is a good thing and that most businesses do before they find their way.
I ended a business partnership also that I could no longer offer anything to be productive.
I may jump back into the game but today is just not the day. I am trying to stop the bleeding and heal the wounds first.
It is tough when you have tasted victory only to see it all disappear - and it now looks more like a dream I had.
I feel like I am entering survival mode.
I got out just a few days ago with literally the clothes on my back.
I am lost.
I have lost all the drive to do these things that I enjoyed doing before.
I am back to square one.
While I could hide offline and not share any of this information I feel there should be no shame. My past relationship was about hiding a lot of things and keeping up "appearances." I am tired of hiding. I am tired of taking people at face value who are not what they say. I am just plain tired. And perhaps one day someone will read this and realize they are not alone - where ever they are in life.
I know what I need to do, and I feel frozen to do anything.
I am suffering from information overload and still have a lot to learn.
A new journey awaits as soon as I am ready.
I am not sure where I am going at this time - literally.
I am broke, homeless, car-less, spouse-less, and my only goal at this time is to just get back on my feet.
I have failed several times now with my business. Some say that is a good thing and that most businesses do before they find their way.
I ended a business partnership also that I could no longer offer anything to be productive.
I may jump back into the game but today is just not the day. I am trying to stop the bleeding and heal the wounds first.
It is tough when you have tasted victory only to see it all disappear - and it now looks more like a dream I had.
I feel like I am entering survival mode.
I got out just a few days ago with literally the clothes on my back.
I am lost.
I have lost all the drive to do these things that I enjoyed doing before.
I am back to square one.
While I could hide offline and not share any of this information I feel there should be no shame. My past relationship was about hiding a lot of things and keeping up "appearances." I am tired of hiding. I am tired of taking people at face value who are not what they say. I am just plain tired. And perhaps one day someone will read this and realize they are not alone - where ever they are in life.
I know what I need to do, and I feel frozen to do anything.
I am suffering from information overload and still have a lot to learn.
A new journey awaits as soon as I am ready.
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Go for it. Most super successful people have had to reset now and then.Posted 28th July 2009 at 01:40 PM by Scott Ames
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Girlfriend (I don't know you - but your post struck a cord)
... breathe. Then breathe again. Take time - that is what heals most. Be gentle with yourself.
Take time to grieve. Remember the Elisabeth Kubler Ross 5 stages of grief:
--- Her ideas, notably the five stages of grief model (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance), are also transferable to personal change and emotional upset resulting from factors other than death and dying. ) ---
Most people bounce from one and then slide back to the other.
Mostly be gentle with yourself. Thomas Moore (Care of the Soul) would not call this an ending, rather a time of re-birth. But in between there's a time of stillness.
Good on you for your courage and authenticity.
And remember - when God (or whatever you believe) closes a door, he/she opens a window. But as you know, it's a real b---- being in the hall!Posted 28th July 2009 at 06:38 PM by kf -
I hear ya, doesn't life just suck sometimes? I'm not homeless, but I'm 32 and recently had to move in with my dad.....not the best situation to be in for impressing the ladies, let me tell you!
When I get down I like to watch an inspiring movie...in fact, I just watched "Rudy" last night and it got me to do more work today than I have in the past week (Men of Honor and Pursuit of Happiness are a couple other good ones)
Think about this.........the best success stories start off with the crappiest situations. So DO NOT give up, and you will have an awesome success story to tell! Hang in there!
-JonPosted 28th July 2009 at 08:20 PM by Jon Mac -
It took a lot of courage to post an honest self-audit at such a painful and vulnerable time in your life. T
he fact that you went public and recognized that there is no shame, in spite of the enormous social pressure to feel bad about feeling bad makes me think you have really healthy self-esteem. That's the most important asset for healing and turning things around.
I think you're going to thrive if you keep reaching out like you're doing and realize being down is just a temporary state, and not who you are. Just keep hanging with your fellow warriors, and do whatever nurtures your spirit.Posted 14th August 2009 at 03:45 PM by Greg guitar - You're one tough cookie. Having to start from scratch can be a good thing, especially when it kicks our desire to thrive into overdrive. A new life with all the possibilities in the world awaits you.Posted 14th August 2009 at 11:01 PM by wordscientist
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Two years ago I was in almost the same place as you.
The pain fades.
You get used to the changes.
It's still hard, but it's also good.
One of the first things I did was write down a list of life goals. I avoided the obvious and reached a little farther. In a lot of ways that helped. It's really easy to ignore direction and a long-term plan when you're just trying to put food on the table. With goals, you can move in a direction that does both.
Lean on your friends. They want to help. Let them.Posted 21st August 2009 at 12:38 PM by Kelly Verge -
You're right - there is no shame, these things happen and we have to go on. I wish you all the best and I hope that this is a new beginning for you that will turn into something good and prosperous and you'll look back one day and think it was the best move you ever made.Posted 3rd September 2009 at 06:05 PM by Sheryl Polomka -
It is so refreshing to see a post like yours. This seems to be a field where people would prefer to present themselves as overnight successes.
I, too, have found myself absolutely frozen from taking any action because I just didn't know what to do. I ended up doing it anyway because there really was no option. When you are at the bottom there is nowhere to go but up.
Take care of yourself and do what you know in your heart is right and I know that you will make it to the top. Honesty wins every single time.Posted 30th July 2014 at 10:50 AM by bobandnanci
