I'm a 24 years old guy. From the day I was born I always suffered from a very serious social anxiety disorder. Psychologists weren't able to fix my problem.
I'm living a shitty life and probly I will always be like this.
Anyway, even with my social anxiety disorder, to keep living I still need money like everyone else.
So as soon as I get my highschool diploma I tried to get money online. At that time I knew nothing about seo, about how to earn online and so on.
I only knew about cms, how to setup websites, etc.
At that time I wanted money as soon as possible. This is why I joined the "dark side" building an anime streaming site. During my teens I watched a lot of anime.
With no marketing or seo knowledge, with just a starting budget of 100$ (for hostings, domains, etc), this project went extremely succesfull.
On June 2014 I get something like 1200000 monthly users. I earned good with adsense, something like 800$/month at that time.
But this didn't last of course. After that month traffic started to decrease drastically.
Doing google researches about this I went on a online marketing forum for the first time. They helped me to find the issue. I was getting tons of DMCA notifications.
I overreacted. I had fear to get sue so I closed the website.
But reading that forum I had a better understanding about seo and stuff online. So on 2016 I built an amazon affiliate website. Then a second and a third. And started buy costly PBN domains doing seo.
I earned nothing on 2016. That year google released tons of updates that made everything slow. But I spent about 4000$ (all the money I had from the streaming website) trying to build a legit business. On 2017, two of them hit position #1, and the other is on position #10.
But I made some mistakes. My fear of competition (You can read here: http://www.warriorforum.com/showthread.php?p=11207647) lead my projects to seasonal niches with low-to-nothing competitors.
So I earned pretty bad. Spending 4000$ I earned 200$/month (600$ total) for 3 month this year.
Huge failure and so far from making a living.
Knowing this I tried to turn the third seasonal website into a dropshipping store. You can read about it here http://www.warriorforum.com/showthread.php?p=11226791
I thought with a dropshipping store I would have been able to get more money and get back better from my investment.
But as you can read there, people doesn't add items to cart and I have no idea what I did wrong this time.
So I don't know what to do now. I would really like to keep learning IM. For me it's the only way to survive at this life I guess. But I'm starting to getting older. All my struggle, and all the project I did so far means nothing for a possible CV and this is so sad and depressing for me.
My parents believe in me and in everything I do.
But my relatives doesn't. They think I'm a failure because I never found a job and also despise me because I embarass my parents. Basically when someone ask my parents what I'm doing, they answer I'm working online. But relative think it's a lie that my parents say because my parents are embarassed by me.
And to be honest... they are not wrong. So far I accomplished nothing. If I should write a CV now it would be empty. A cousin of mine 3 years younger than me is earning 2000$/month by doing the waiter at a high class restaurant... and you have no idea of much his parents despise me, believing their son is better than me. Not that I really care about this single-headed competition, it's just they are not wrong.
So I have no idea what to do with my life. Keep going with IM, failing and maybe give up about the idea of a possible future decent work (Even if I prefer to not aim to it due to my social problems). Or maybe give up IM. I have no friends to help me and I really don't know what to do.