means I wouldn't be writing this.
June 21, 1998.
I was sitting on the edge of my bed, gun in hand, deciding whether or not
it was worth continuing living.
Having a gun, to me, was second nature. I had been a cop for 5 years
at that point.
But deciding whether or not to end my life?
Foreign as could be.
But I was lost.
I had just quit my police job, even though I was making quite a bit of
money. I was in my 20's and because I had no real responsibilities, had
over $200,000 in the bank.
And yet, here I was, wondering if I should put the gun in my mouth.
I quit the force because it wasn't "me"... it wasn't who I was.
But I figured I had no idea what I was to do next.
My Dad thought I was a failure for quitting. To him, success was
just having a stable job like the one he had for 20 years in a factory.
For some reason, and to this day, I have no idea what caused me to
think of them.
But I was sitting there with my police issued service weapon and just
suddenly thought of my Anthony Robbins tapes that were packed in the
Again, I can't explain why i did it, but I put the gun down, walked to the
garage, and grabbed the tapes and went on a listening binge.
24/7... I had his Personal Power 2 tapes in my car, my house, my
Less than a year later, not only was I still alive, I had become one of the
top personal trainers in the Portland Maine region.
When other trainers had a few clients here and there, I had a waiting list
of over 40 clients wanting to train with me.
I was making more money than I had ever made in my life.
And yet, I was still unhappy.
Something inside me told me I could help more people and make a
Well, in 2001, I didn't really have a choice whether or not I'd remain
a personal trainer.
The gym I had worked at suddenly closed and I was without a place
to train people.
Once again, I became down and depressed... but still had something
inside me that kept me thinking "Not only can I do this, not only can I
make an impact, I'm going to figure it out".
A few days later, I came across a book in the book store that was called
"Multiple Streams of Internet Income" by Robert Allen.
And just like that, my internet career was born.
From 2001 to 2009, I sold over $6 million dollars worth of e-books in all
kinds of fitness niches.
And still? I had this drive inside me that kept moving me forward, to try
and help MORE people improve their lives.
With more money in the bank than I knew what to do with, at the age of
30-something... money was NEVER my driving force.
And in all honesty, it shouldn't be yours either.
If you want to make it online and be here for 20 years or more like
I've been... you need to find something bigger than just making money.
It starts with trying to make an IMPACT and add value to as many
peoples' lives as you can.
Do THAT and I promise, the money will follow.
Not only that, but if you're only after the money, you won't want to stick
it out, when times get tough. It's too easy to throw in the towel when
your plan is just to make money.
But if your plan is to do what you FEEL you're meant to do...
If your plan is to help as many people as you can, then you're more
likely to stick it out when times are tough.
And yes, times do and will always get tough. It's just part of life.
Show me someone who hasn't gone through tough times and
I'll show you someone who hasn't done anything worthwhile.
So if you're only looking to make money online... whose to say you'll
want to stick it out when the money isn't coming in and the bills are
But, as I found... if you're truly motivated to reach whatever full potential
you feel you're capable of... that can be the ONE thing that keeps you
going when times are tough.
And trust me, when your mission is to help others and add value to them
first... before you make a dime... then you have a reason for "doing" that's
much greater than yourself.
When you're driven to help yourself as well as thousands of other people...
it will give your life meaning more than you can imagine.
Believe me, it's never about the money alone.
For if it was, I never would have found myself on the edge of the bed that
day in 1998, wondering if it was worth living.
Listen to your heart, your gut, or whatever you want to call it... but if you feel
you can help a lot of other people with your online business... use that to keep
you moving forward, even when you're not sure you want to....