My goal this year is to be making enough money online by this summer to be able to stay home with my two year old son starting next school year.
Recently, our school offered an incentive to all employees. If we finish work this year and work two more years, we will receive $2,000 a year in bonus money. If we quit before the three years are up, we have to pay back the bonus money.
We only had three days to decide. I really wrestled with the decision. Would I be selling out to sign up for the bonus money? Did that mean I wasn't confident in my ability to quit at the end of this year?
On the other hand, if I DID end up working the next two years, it would be nice to have the bonus money... especially since I'm already working this year. Having to work two more years... AND not get the bonus money others were getting would not be good.
In the end I decided that I would sign to receive the bonus each year. I could still become successful online and quit next year... I would just pay back the money - which hopefully wouldn't be a problem.
Now I don't feel as excited about thinking about meeting my goal and working from home after this summer... Now something in the back of my mind says "If you really believe that... would did you sign?
Right now I feel like somewhat of a sellout and I think it's holding me back a little.
Any advice on getting the right mindset back?