First of all, Happy Valentine's Day! If you're able to be with the one you love today, ignore this post and go share your time with your loved ones. You deserve it and so do they. <g> I'll be here later.
Okay, here we go...
If any of you have watched the videos Tony Robbins has been putting out for the last several months, you're likely familiar with the meaning he puts behind those words in the subject of this post.
Basically (for those of you who haven't been watching) Tony tells folks how to "rise above" whatever they are facing in their lives at the moment.
He asks you to "see things as they are" -- not worse, but just as they are. Then, he tells you to see them better than they are. Then, figure out exactly how to move your life to become the one in the "better" vision you have.
Much like Jim Carry's character in the movie BRUCE ALMIGHTY, my life feels pretty dang mediocre right now. And like Bruce, I do NOT want to "settle" for mediocrity. In fact, mediocrity rubs me the wrong way. It chafes against everything I believe to be true about myself.
It grates against my ingrained self so bad I have a rash! (kidding)
Seriously though, I believe life has so much more to offer, and that we all are meant to be, do, and have more than is reflected in my life today. What about you? Are YOU willing to settle for what you have right now?
If you are, great! You probably have a bright, clear vision for your future, and I am more than happy for you.
So anyway, here's where I'm at: I definitely see my situation "as it is." I see it loud and clear, and while it's not terrible, it ain't all that gorgeous either, you know?
I mean, we've got a handle on things (like a lot of you probably have), but if this is all I had to look forward to from my life - for the rest of my life - I wanna stop the bus and get off here, you know? No point in riding out the rest of the route if I'm just gonna end up right back here, yes?
Let me put it this way...
I recently took a long look around at some of the people in my life, both older and younger, and I have to say I did not enjoy what I saw...because it looked way too much like everyone's practicing an exercise in futility.
Ever done that? Look around and see young people full of hopes, dreams, and aspirations who you know that, in order to meet those dreams, will have to do an awful lot of sacrifice and struggling, possibly for years, to get there?
Then, you look at people who are more in the same age/financial/lifespan/social group or bracket as you, and this group of people are working, forcing themselves to do what they have to do each day, but they're more tired and many of them are a bit embittered and angry, and I really can't blame them, considering.
It's like the life's been sucked right out of them. They seem... well... hopeless.
Why? Because although they're still holding on to the tail end of those hopes, dreams, and aspirations they started out with as teens and young adults, they appear to have reached a point where it seems like life would be a whole lot easier if they just gave up, and gave in.
Like the only thing capable of stopping their struggles and suffering would be to stop trying to have anything at all, much less those few exciting, inspiring, and empowering things they really, really wanted to achieve in life...back when they were younger.
In fact, sometimes I think if they all just let go and forgot about the past up to this point and started over from scratch, life would go a whole lot smoother and easier for them.
And then you look around at the older folks, and what you see is really pitiful. Why? Because here you see people who have done the struggling, the hanging on by a thread to get from day to day for more years than you can count on four hands...and what do they have to show for it?
Nothing. These people are nearing the end of a long life with nothing to show, no achievements other than mere survival.
Have you seen something similar in the lives around you?
I find it awfully, terribly sad. And for myself, I am not willing to settle for that. Survival may be "life," but it's nowhere near "living."
It's not even close.
But here's where my problem comes in: As I said above, I definitely see things as they are ... but I am having a little trouble with "creating a vision for the future" for myself.
Why? Because it seems, like that middle group of people above, I've lost my passion for the vision I once held for myself. Yes, I know that's terribly revealing, but...
Let's back up a little bit.
When I was 13, my goal was to finish high school, go to Harvard, Yale, or Princeton and get a degree in big business management and be a millionaire by the time I was 35. At 17, it was to learn to write romance. At 27 it was to write the "Great American Romance Novel," and a few years later, it was to be an "A level" copywriter.
Instead of Harvard, I did the correspondence thing - learned accounting/bookkeeping, corporate and personal taxes, how to write fiction, how to write copy. But once I "knew how to do" those things, they lost their appeal.
See, I think I'm "smart," as in very intelligent, and sometimes this poses a problem for me in that I feel I have to do everything myself...because I'm smart enough to do so.
I'm also spoiled. Everything I ever really, truly wanted in life (materially), I've got it ... except for the million by 35. I wanted a car like my brother's. I got it. I wanted a certain kind of home. I got it. I wanted a specific kind of mini-van. I got it.
Computers, clothes, books, if it was material and I wanted it...somehow...it managed to find its way to me.
So now, I'm at a point where I feel there is nothing more to want, and that I've actually fulfilled all the goals I had for myself that were really important to me.
For the last few years I've done a lot of jumping around from this to that to the other, but nothing, not a bit of it, was fulfilling.
And I'm still here. LOL
And I am kind of at a loss as to what to do with myself. Should I get a "job," as one person suggested? I don't think so, since that's kinda akin to simply surviving when I want to LIVE.
I want the rest of my family to be able to LIVE also, yet...
When I try to summon a vision of the kind of future I'd like to have, I get a blank screen. There's just nothing there.
And on one of those rare days when something "does" show up on my vision monitor, it's so jumbled and confused -- I can't focus on any one thing over another.
There's no up or down, no right or left, no sense of direction at all.
What does one do in a situation like this?
Deep down, I know I want to do something "great" that will really, truly help people, really make a significant difference in their lives, and I want to be able to honestly enjoy myself (and possibly make more money) in the process.
But I am having trouble figuring out what that "great something" could be, trouble summoning even a snippet of a scene for the grand "future vision" I need to create a passion to help me move forward toward it.
Okay, so I guess I'm rambling now. I'll go ahead and wrap this up. For those of you who read to the end and are wondering, "What the heck is the point? What does she want from us?" this is it:
I'm looking for ideas and suggestions from some of you who have maybe been there, or at least know where I'm coming from, to help me "open up" to a possible vision for a better future for myself.
Thanks in advance to any who reply. I appreciate the effort it took you to read through all this mess and try to sort it enough to give a response. Hey, I never said the inside of my mind was pretty.