As someone of you know my business went belly up last year and I have had to start again pretty much from scratch.
Last November I raised some funds to start a new project and have been working on it since.
5 months of working in solitary confinment (my spare room lol) with little social life due to lack of money are starting to take their toll and I'm finding it a real struggle to keep focus and feeling really frustrated everything has taken so long.
I have had several setbacks during the period that has delayed things a lot and been quite stressful, but now I have overcome most of the hurdles and I just need to get my head down each day and finish off all the coding and sales copy. If I apply myself I am pretty sure I could go live within a month.
Being so close to the finish line I should have twice as much entusiasm but for some reason I dont. I think I may be subconciously afraid of actually getting to the finish line. I have borrowed a lot of money to get this thing going and I don't want to let people down.
I really enjoy what I do and have been putting in 8-14 hour days no sweat, but now I am procrastinating really badly and putting off difficult jobs until they are well overdure. I'm hardly sleeping either. Right now its 5am and I haven't slept a wink and I have meetings to go to in a few hours. I really need to do something to get myself focused again but I am not sure what.
Any time I had a motivation problem when I was working sales I used to listen to some brian tracey cd's and that would get me fired up for selling and hitting my targets. This is different as I have much less interaction with people and just my willpower to get up each day and continue to work on code and marketing. As I am a salesman at heart, having an empty salesboard all this time adds to the frustration. I have some blogs making me some pocket money but I am ignoring them completely so I can get this job done.
There isn't an excuse for doing less than 8 hours of solid work each day and I'm getting PO'd at myself as Im not doing it. So close to the finish line! Maybe I need to hire someone to beat me with a stick any time im not working.
Sorry for the long ramble. Does anyone know a good way to get myself back to full efficiency? Any good motivational CD's for motivating you to work alone on a pc everyday?