Fact: You Suck At Marketing

lol...so true

I'm one of these people who is never satisfied or fulfilled in his own work/output/"talents", and considers himself a failure at everything he does - constantly. Heh. :p

Everything I do - as far as I can see - sucks:

- I cook, but I'm crap at it. Others people tell me otherwise.

- I play guitar, but stink. And yet I've had offers to play in several bands.

- I had a girlfriend but for some reason always felt I was intrinsically lacking of the qualities/traits necessary to make anyone else feel loved, happy or fulfilled. So I gave up to release her with the burden of "having to stay with me", and she walked. Then she more-or-less told me she saw me in totally the opposite way how I saw myself, and that our relationship failure was a direct result of my own continued self-doubt, and apparent desire to see things break down. WTF, eh?

But I'm weird in that if what I'm "working towards" doesn't involve another person (such as in a relationship), I can keep cranking away at it for a long, long time (without feeling guilty of wasting anyone elses time but my own), until it works - even if I don't feel it'll work out: and it normally does.

I started and ran a successful little business when I was 15/16-19 or so, I've excelled in the workplace (for the short period of time I've actually had jobs), I've been successful more recently in SEO, AdSense and general affiliate marketing ... and now I'm just starting out with e-product affiliate marketing via Clickbank, and expect I'll be able to succeed with that,, just based on my previous successes.

But not without continued feelings of self-doubt, inadequacy and displeasure and disgust at the sight and thought of all that I do.

I suppose it's true that for a lot of people, their failure is more to do with paralysing self-doubt (either fear of impending failure, or the trauma of previous failure) than it is with their actual ability to do or accomplish something. I've tried the whole "self-belief" thing and think that if you're not confident in that way (and not one to "easily brainwash yourself"), you never will be.

I'm exceedingly self-deprecating at worst, and all but completely neutral in my own self-belief, at best. Never does it get any better than that.

But that doesnt mean you can't try at something anyway. It just kind of goes against logic for some people to try something they don't believe they can succeed at.

I generally look at other people, and use common sense, to gauge if what I'm trying for is possible to achieve ... and if it's possible for them, I figure I can find a way to make it possible for me, too - with work.

Just a slightly strange story about some guy who is persistent, who is motivated, and who has been (and usually is) successful - but who doesn't, by any stretch of the imagination, possess any real sense of self-belief ... and who doesn't seem to need it.