I apologize for this being my first post and not offering much value or introducing myself properly, but I have been trying to figure this out for a good few years now to no avail, and I am hoping the minds here can help me out, God-willing.
I have tried to get into IM full time for the past 7 year or so, but it has never taken off. I make a little bit of money online every month, but nothing to replace my full-time income with.
Nothing can hold my attention. Every time I start a project, I am all excited about it and go at it with full force; but once that initial adrenaline and rush is gone, I can't seem to take interest in it no matter how hard I try and it either gets left halfway done, or gets completed but not as well as I thought it would since I just can't keep interest in it.
Not boasting here, but I sincerely and humbly hope you'll understand the point. I am a very smart guy, thank God. I can read well, I can write well, I can understand many different things and ideas well, I can comprehend what many others have difficulty comprehending (again not boasting at all but trying to make my point). I have knowledge in "traditional" webdesign, I understand Wordpress and can go from purchasing a domain name to having Wordpress installed and configured in a matter of a few minutes (like anyone else I'm sure, but again trying to make my point here).
I write very well (or so I've been told), I'm a platinum level author on Ezine Articles, applied at TextBroker a few days ago just to see what happens and the 200 word writing sample I wrote in my sleep got me rated as a level 4 by them, I have written articles for others (rarely) in the past and they loved what I wrote... but yet I can't figure out what to write about. I had applied at Text Broker thinking I would write a couple of articles for them daily to earn a little bit of extra cash on the side and maybe get into the "writing mode" for my own sites, but I sit there and go through their assignments in all categories and nothing appeals to me for some reason.
This is my main issue that I'm trying to get to: I cannot, for the life of me, figure out what my "passion" is!
I'm not a "loner" or a "weird guy" or any characteristics which one may associate with someone who doesn't "like" anything or doesn't have a passion. I'm actually a very normal, fun guy, have a nice family and friends, people like me and respect me. Again, not boasting, but trying to drive home the point that I am a "normal" guy who apparently doesn't like anything enough for it to hold his interest? How is that possible? :confused:
I have even done some of those exercises here and there, where you sit down and make a list of everything that pops into your head and then try to narrow down something you would love to do from there, but never was able to figure out something to which I would just say "oh my God this is it, I can't wait to do this and keep doing it from this point forward!". You know how they say your true passion is what you would do whether you were getting paid to do it or not? That's what I'm looking for but apparently having a bit of trouble finding it.
Even if I arrive at something which I think I like, as I said, after a while, sometimes hours, sometimes days, weeks at most, I completely lose interest in it to the point where I don't even want to look at it. I have many websites, some finished, some unfinished, many domains which I researched and they highly appealed to me at the time so I purchased them but then I lost interest and they're just sitting there.
I have the ability to write well, thank God, but as I said, I cannot figure out what to write about, nor do I like to write to be honest, even though I have the ability to write well (hope that makes sense). I feel that if I could find a topic which I was extremely passionate about, combined with my writing & researching skills, I could really develop a huge, successful authority site in that niche... but I have tried and tried, researched niches after niches for years and years, and for some reason I'm not passionate about anything?? How is that possible? :confused:
I'm just not understanding why I keep selling myself short, when I know I am capable of so much more. Thank God, I have a day-job with a decent salary, but there are just certain circumstances with myself and some loved ones where I seriously need to jump in and help out (with financial support), and I know that financial support and more can come from a successful internet business, but I just can't figure it out!
From the beginning of 2012 I have been on a leave of absence from my day job due to certain reasons, and I have about 6 weeks or so left before I go back to work. So I have the luxury of more or less dedicating as much time as needed to IM during this time, and I also have about $1000, more if justified, to invest into anything which may be needed, so, thank God, I am not as cash-strapped as many are when they try to go into IM.
I need to make something happen in these few weeks, otherwise I will get sucked back into the day-job again and that will probably be it. I need help.
I'll stop talking (writing) now as I've babbled enough already, but I certainly hope I was able to make my point. In the end, I am looking for help, I'll try just about anything, to find my passion which I could venture into and turn into a full-time IM gig for me.
Thank you for your time and your advice.