Follow Through

Hello everybody,

I'm a regular lurker here but infrequent poster. As a relative newbie I often feel that I don't have much to contribute. I'll often read a post and know exactly what more seasoned members are going to say in response, but don't feel I have the experience to lend the same advice. Talk is hollow and I don't want to be one to give advice without the reputation to back it up.

I'm a perfectionist with a broad range of skills. I have no trouble with the technical aspects, building, designing, launching a site. I can do page layout, graphics, design, css. I understand lots of techniques for PPC and SEO, CPA, list building, fan pages.... But I have no real experience because I've never actually done these things. I had an aweber account for several months before I canceled it because I never used it a single time. I've been paying for hosting for years. I have a few product sites, a blog, and an amazon review site, but I haven't even finished the reviews or posted the links or started the SEO.

I've been reading about marketing for nearly 6 years and have yet to make a single dollar. I want to read about everything because I want to understand how all of the skills and parts work together to make a full business but then get overwhelmed by trying to learn all the stages at once, or even sequentially honestly because there is so much to learn.

I've thought maybe I should seek to use my skills here on the forum to do ebook design or banners or logos or produce microstock assets, but I don't have a recent portfolio put together.

Structure is really hard for me, on the one hand I hate having a job more than anybody I know, I want to be my own boss more than anything. But on the other hand, despite even knowing exactly what I need to do to make it work, its hard for me to accomplish the steps without direction or outside motivation. I think I need some accountability, like marketers anonymous or something. Maybe that's what mentors are for.

I frequently find myself acting almost addicted to thoughts of success. Sometimes I'll come on the forum just to read about people that are making $1000's day...or honestly even less, like around $3000/mo without a JOB. That is more than I've ever made at any job and to me earning that without a boss on my OWN is a dream in itself. I think that's the problem for a lot of people. The thought of succeeding beyond your dreams is so exciting, that you spend more time reading about it than taking action.

Being a regular here and buying my war room membership has made me feel closer than ever to being able to realize my dreams. I fully believe in the reality of making money online, I fully believe in myself and my abilities. I just need to get over myself and move from motivation to follow through. I need to find a way to do, and then keep doing and then do till my knuckles bleed.