The End of the Beginning? I'm in Need of Help!
I apologize for the essay below but I thought if I give you everything the answer would not be the same as the average 'noob's that I have read so many times; I have done my best to split it up neatly.
I am stuck before I have even begun...:confused:
I usually don't ask questions because it hurts my pride but this is getting on my nerves now, I simply cannot find the answer, in fact I probably know the answer but it doesn't seem to leap out and 'take me'. So I cannot thank you enough if you read this because I am personally fed up.
So let me get across my mindset and lifestyle (Bare with me here):
- I am a dreamer; I love to think about that Lamborghini I will be driving when I'm 23 and the swag I will have, not to mention the online presence I will create.
- I am an awful procrastinator, E.G. "tomorrow I will begin campaign 1, this means I can play Xbox now because I start tomorrow"
- I practically could write an E-Book on CPA marketing because I have read so many ebooks and methods, I get the gist etc. But I have never put anything 'legit' into action.
- What I do in the day: Wake up at 11am, eat, eat and then just wander through the internet like I have nothing better to do and then bed at 12pm.
- I have read (Hard Books): Think and Grow Rich (I'm on my second read of this), Own your niche, Digital marketing, Getting things done, Laptop Lifestyle (Gregg and Fiona Scott).
- I have spent over 4 months in this dreamy, philosophical entity I call procrastination.
- I'm obsessive: I think about Internet Marketing all day, it has completely consumed me (this does not seem to be a problem, but say if it's odd to you).
I'm pretty good at the following: Gaming, video editing (Vegas Pro), photo editing (Photoshop), coding (VB.net, C++, Dos-batch), logical thinking and creative thinking, organizing, convincing people, anything techie I consider myself to pretty good, Learning from Google searches (until now) and mostly anything I put my mind to.
This is the first question I have ever asked any forum or anybody for that matter - I usually use Google and that serves very well. I cannot begin to fathom the number of times I have searched: How to begin IM, How to be proactive, do it don't think it etc.
Just to let you know: I don't have a problem with getting accepted into networks and I am already a member of a few prestigious networks.
Ok I am now going to explore what I believe the problem is:
I am never told that I am 'bad' or 'Incapable' and if I am it makes me want it harder so I can prove the naysayers wrong, but because of this I set my goals way too high. For example in one of the many guides I have read it said: "Prepare to fail 5 times and 5 times after that" and I thought to myself: nope, not me, I should get it first time, maybe on my second attempt because I would have learnt from my first mistakes. I know this is completely the wrong attitude.
I honestly feel that I am on my 'high horse' and I have never been knocked down but maybe this is what I need to bring me back to reality. "No I'm not going to be the best on my first attempt..."
I want to be successful so bad that it's causing me stress when I'm on holiday; there is 'something' sinister between myself and action. [Probably nothing (sub-conscious block)]
I have continuously been told that I am "lazy", "Bone Idol" and "too competitive".
- Lazy: Homework - I rarely did this, or I copied someone else's off of the internet, I sit on my ass for most of the day.
- Bone Idol: I daydream of the 'better' future like I said earlier; most of my day consists of this.
- Competitive: I'm competitive, everything is a game, and when I play games I play to win. I find it hard to look at someone else's constructive progress and congratulate them (Unless I know I am better of course). It kills me to see 15 year olds earning more than me on the internet when I'm stuck like this...
Regarding age, as I know this is a very important factor - I am 16 (I was considering not saying this because I believe that you will respond very differently) and currently on my 9 week holiday after high school. You might think: well you shouldn't be worrying about careers quite yet, but I know it's possible and therefore I am going to have a good go at it.
Just so you know I am not relying on my IM success, I am going to further education for another 2 years, so I have a lot of time to get this business flowing before I 'take to the sky' (I'm taking Mathematics, Economics, Computing and Business and hope to do/be a software developer/Games programmer (That's if I don't succeed in IM over the next 2 years. When I get the flow of it, you wont be able to stop me, but this first hurdle is really proving very tricky))
Possible solutions (That I am thinking about (Notice the word 'thinking', god am I pathetic)):
Regarding 'the problem', I am considering taking everything off of my computer unless it's necessary for CPA marketing and blocking web pages in windows hosts files (Facebook and several forums). I have also considered taking physical items out of my belonging until I complete certain tasks (This might sound dramatic but I am wearing thin so anything that could help I would jump for)
The questions I have:
1. There are too many options for me to handle, which one should I choose? If I choose this one will I have wasted my time on a dead end? (The problem here is schooling teaches you, indirectly, to learn from a master source; all the answers you need are in one book. Whereas in Internet Marketing you make your own path or follow one single one that someone else has already travelled)
1.1. Due to my age I am on a very limited budget, so what method/niche/promotion would suit this?
2. How do I get motivated? (I want to wake up at 6:30, exercise, go to the gym, help others, begin my venture but at the moment there is no point thus I 'can't be arsed')
3. How do I focus and eliminate distractions (I'm sure if I become motivated on a target I will find an answer to this question myself)
4. Did you have similar problems when beginning?
5. What are my chances of success in IM with my current attitudes? (Success in this question is the ability to live off IM without any other income)
6. Should I give up (and find a new 'obsession')?
7. In general what would you advise or not? Please be honest because currently I am shrouded from everything opinionated.
If you have made it to the end I cannot thank you enough, absolutely everything you post below is greatly appreciated more than you can imagine.
Best regards
Matt Owen
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