today the universe ever so bluntly pointed out my main problem.. I totally Believe their is Abundance . My problem is My sense of wortiness or sell worth.. has been obliterated through most of my life through family interaction and peer interaction ..
There is a possibility it streches back many lifetime as well but if you don believe in that stuff .. that is fine ..
At this point it is as i am trying to use my hand to carry water from a huge lake ..i know the lake is there but i have never had much luck getting water from it ..
It is rather brutal for me right now.. as i am forced to figure these issues out at a fast pace .