And I had to put out the opposite into the world because I'm OCD like that, and it felt a little unbalanced with all that hatin'. :p
I love my life! I have two boys who are gorgeous and sweet young men... I have a family and friends who care about me and support me... I have a business that pays my bills and then some, and allows me a bit of freedom in my life... I have two adoring dogs and a crazy cat that even loves me, purring on my lap as I type this... I have my own home albeit rented, my own car, and a life I can be proud of... I LOVE my life.
I am grateful each and every day for all of the good things I have in my life these days. Have I had dark days? Sure! Everyone does.
Do I still have dark days? Sure! But I tell myself to take a nap, and when I awake I'll feel 10 times better and things won't look so bleak. And guess what? They never look quite so bleak, and they always take an upward swing at some point.
That is just life. Fleeting moments of happiness, followed by dark valleys of less than happiness. The idea is to keep your focus on grabbing those fleeting moments, and hanging on to them during the dark times, secure in the knowledge that they ALWAYS find their way back to you, even in a moment as simple as enjoying a cup of hot chocolate on a cold day.
And if you STILL have a problem finding some gratitude and appreciating the good moments that you do experience, do what a good friend of mine does...
Hope in the damn shower and start saying thank you for all that clean, warm water washing over you, the fact that you have soap to wash with, electricity to see with, and a clean towel to dry with when you're done.
You know how many people don't even have clean water to DRINK? Much less enjoy a shower? Crikey. If you are on this forum, it's a guarantee that somebody on this planet has a life 10 times worse than yours. Recognize that, accept it, and be freakin' thankful it ain't you!
And if you really hate yourself and your life THAT much and you can't escape your misery... seek professional help.
::climbing down from the unintentional soap box I landed on..dustin' off my hands:: OK, done now!