I write this at 3.48am, I am student and have lectures at 11-1 on Chinese history then from 1-3 Chinese language. I live in the UK and study in London, I am 19 years old and have always been very motivated, focused and have always had aims and ambitions.
However during the past 6 months perhaps, my motivation, my focus, my goals, my ambitions have faded away. I don't know what is happening, I love Internet marketing but find it hard to sit down and focus on one particular task. I have thousands of ideas and find it hard to stick with one or a few ideas.
I am no longer motivated by materialistic goods, well not for a long period of time. For example I bought an 27" iMac the other week and after a day or two I was no longer amused by its gadgets and aesthetic appeal. The only thing I know is that I don't want to worry about money like my Mother has done. I would love to be in a situation where I could give back what I have taken, sometimes for granted.
However this is not enough of a motivation to get me going again, I find it hard to sleep at night as it seems I cannot set my mind at rest until I find myself, but even I don't know what I mean by it.
I am not sure why I am writing this here I guess I am just looking for guidance.
I want to travel the world and to experience different cultures, I want to feel proud that I have done things for others and I want my name to be known for helping others but first I need to help myself.