In this instance, you will find yourself also disliking many things around you in your external world, suddenly, because those very things DIRECTLY remind you of this conflict within.
Since you are fighting a war with yourself within, this war then manifests itself outside, and you start putting up walls, and suppressing your emotions, and you even start lying to yourself.
You may even deny it, since you think that you are acting on the outside, which PROVES all of the above wrong. But the fact of the matter is, that you are using the suppressing of everything as an excuse to act on the outside, because you think that by getting things done on the outside, the inside will feel better!
What I mean by this, is for example:
You think, oh, if I make it to my goal of 200$ a day, I will not feel so bad, because I will be able to do this and that ...
or you think oh, if I work out some more, I will feel better, because I will be more healthy...
And it continues on like this, but then you end up reaching your goals, and you STILL don't feel better. So you act MORE, and become even more withdrawn from others. Now you are really frustrated, so you are really starting to begin to hate what others do around you, because it only reminds you even more of the fact that you have an inner conflict going on.
So this war just gets worse and worse and worse....and you become so crafty, that you keep on developing new tools and new walls to make right what is actually wrong.
So who really wins the war, when the war is with yourself? Who truly wins here?