Last weekend I was at a very low point emotionally - frustrated with myself for not doing what needed to be done as well as love-life/high-school-drama issues. After a couple nights where I literally ended up crying on one of my best friend's shoulders, he later messaged me and got me to thinking... a LOT.
He told me, and reminded me again how important it is, to clear my mind of negativity and think about what it is that will make ME happy, bring ME a feeling of joy. Focusing on what I have and building on that. Realizing that however I approach a situation will determine what consequences ensue as a result, and showing how my decisions impact the lives of others. Where do I have room for growth? What am I running away from, when I should be taking responsibility for my actions? What am I doing to myself, how does it affect those around me? Where am I focusing on the lack, where I should be looking at what I have?
What you focus on expands. I remember replying to this thread (http://www.warriorforum.com/main-int...essful-im.html) over a year ago and how much it inspired me then, and now looking back on it, I see how that concept spills over into every area of my life.
Taking back control. I turned falling flat on my face into an art form the last year or so. I've had a blast even during all this time (I make a point of having an awesome time, even during the sh*t-times), but repeating the same actions that clearly weren't working for me put me in a rut. I'm also now realizing that it doesn't just apply to actions - repeating the same mentalities that aren't working are just as much a fasttrack to insanity (and the root behind said actions).
By the end, he'd essentially told me that only by taking control of the life I know I'm capable of living will I be able to achieve what I want to, and repair any damage I may have caused others in my own personal life.
I thought all night about what he'd said that night. And the next day, I did something I hadn't done in years.
I CLEANED OUT MY CLOSET.
May sound random, might sound irrelevant, but it was one of the most liberating things I'd done in a long time. Got everything out of there - and I mean EVERYTHING - and got obsessive about cleaning it. Dusted the shelves, scrubbed the walls, put linen freshener on the carpet and vacuumed at least five times over, the whole nine yards. The damage done:
- Five bags of trash
- About 1.5 million used dustrags
- Seven bags of giveaways
- Gained (at least) 3 square feet of closet space
- Found a few pieces of clothing, trinkets, etc that were once gone-forever
- Found a Spongebob tie, NO idea where it came from, in perfect-condition - this made an awesome gift to a friend
Psychological effects of such a cleaning:
- I feel more capable now of doing what needs to be done.
- Realized it's time to stop crying about the ways I've f*cked up, especially since I have the means and the knowledge to fix everything.
- One reason I'd been MIA was due to (not proud of this, but it is what it is) essentially hiding with my tail between my legs. Now I'm out and posting again, putting out there what I feel I have to give.
- I've realized that it's one thing to tell another person, "I'm sorry," but it's ENTIRELY another to say, "I take responsibility for everything that's been said and done." Even then, trust is not built overnight, but it's a great start.
The moral of the story:
Your physical state reflects your mental and emotional state. This not only applies to your physical body (a lot of the same concepts though also another thread altogether) but your surroundings. By severing what no longer serves, you allow better and brighter things to come into your life. You never realize just how much of your energy is tied up in the wrong things until you let those things go. Working from the outside in. It's doing wonders for me.