My life changing/horrible experience with playing with my mind

I picked up this book

"how to get lots of money for anything fast" by staurt lichtman and joe vitale

I read this ebook thoroughly and implemented it in past 15 days. From past 15 days, my life has totally changed. I am in such a shock that i dont even know how my life totally changed in past 15 days.

When i picked this ebook, i had one goal in my mind. Very small one and i wanted to check whether this stuff works or not. I wanted "$500 extra, so that i should help out my gf financially".

So, after reading and implementing, i came up with my own subconscious story and began writing it down on my paper. something like this

"May is best month for me in 2012. I made lot of money, i touched $10k mark. I called my gf and told her, i will like to contribute $500 in your installment. I am asking her loan account number. I am roaming in my house and called my employee. Gave him $500 and after an hour, he came back with slip and said "sir, i deposited the money"


I wrote these lines 100 times. Than started visualizing it using all my 5 senses. I dont know what happened to me, my whole persona changed. I started working like mad. I am introvert, but i picked phone and started doing 50 calls daily. I started knocking every opportunity for next 4 days.

5th day, my gf called me. She said "Ankur, i want to break relationship. I am in love with other boy now. dont want to marry you"

My heart just stopped for a moment. It was worse moment of my life, the girl whom i loved for 5 years, just dumped me. She said "Ankur, i have found boy, who got better financial status. My loan gives me headache and i am sure, my new bf will help me out in clearing my debts."

In next 2 days, i made enough money, that i had $500 extra to pay her installment. I called my employee and he deposited money.

So, i eventually, fulfilled what i wrote on paper. But my relationship was dead now. I was in more pain, than ever.

Than, i again picked pen paper and wrote "In july, me and my gf is marrying and we all are really happy". But, next 10 days, she constantly ignored me, became very rude.

I have house now, money for marriage, we were waiting for this day from past 5 years and now when everything is ready, she is gone.

Anyway, next 8 days i kept writing these same sentences. This time, i made modification and added, on my wedding day, everybody is really happy.

However, after 10 days of her being rude. Her constantly reminding me, that she will marry whosoever will have more money, ancestral property and doesnt care for his family.

It was too much for me and i realized, she is so much shallow, even if i bring her back in my life, i will be a complete looser.

I stopped writing sentences "me and my gf marrying.....". Because, even if this does happen, i was sure, i will not be happy with such a shallow person. She has totally changed over the years and she is not really whom i fell in love with.

I was extremely hurt. So much so, i didnt eat anything for next 5 days, not even a single piece of bread. Everytime i think of her, i feel like vomiting because of stress.

Just 2 days back, i picked up this book again, started reading it again. The book clearly said, whatever you demand from yourself, please write "This thing should be good for me and everyone else". Clearly, i didnt write this part in my first go. That was my mistake.

So, 2 days back, when i was in complete stress. I again picked pen and paper and wrote down "I have full well established seo company in month of august and i have 50 employees under me. I am enjoying my work and i am very happy working on my client's seo projects. This is going to be fun for me , my family and friends".

Now, i am feeling better. Dont think about her so much. Though, when i am alone, i do feel pain in my heart. But, i am back to my work, working diligently with my employees and after 15 days i guess, today i smiled.

So, before doing these sort of unconscious experiments, be very very careful. Be careful, what you wish for. You dont know, how your unconscious mind will behave and act.

I can even say may be this is all a great coincidence. But, still, be very very careful with how you play with your unconscious mind. In many moments, even we dont know what we want from life.