Mental state

success is a big topic on these boards .. and people come here to be more successful .. or get an idea what success is ..

for the past decade i have been reading and persuing success motivation ..and other material ..but not to gain wealth .. much of the past ten years has been spent in a declining mental state with a full mental unraveling .. during this time i have head a self imposed near poverty state in order to not have to option to use drugs or drowned myself in booze ..

I am no victim though .. what i have gone through was needed and everything that happened and how it happened..needed to happen the way it happened ..today i have put much of my mind back together and i am getting a view of who i want to be from this point forward ..using the knowlledge of my self i have gained over this time .. not the programmed lists of should the world wants to give me..

I am done with being broke and having no money..which is part of why i am scanning these boards ... but i am definatly not searing for a way to make millions .. I am looking for ways to produce income.. that fit my most productive patterns.. will alow me to live where it is best for me to live ..and eat food that fits what i want to eat ..

for me that can be a nice coastal city in some country where you can live like a king for 2 grand a month ..

From my extremely long periods without success .. i know have a vision of what a successful life is for me ..and my inner being like to hit me with the picture of the food i want to eat when i sit down to eat a junky burger from mcdonalds ..

We are currently ledavign a world that minted a vision of success and handed it to you or marketed it to you ..equating success with making so much money .. or having so much stuff.. but that world is collapsing and falling away ..

we are entering a world with a menue of stuff and a veriety of lifesyles that can best fit you ..and many many ways to connect with people similar to you .. rather than having to put up an image and be like other people with money ..