It's been a journey for sure.
Only 4 years ago I was living on the streets and today I'm living in a 4 bedroom house, with a pool, hot tub, and in a very nice neighborhood.
I never would have thought I'd be in this position when I started working online. I thought things like this were fake and only dreams.
Don't ever let your thoughts take over. You can do anything you want to do, you have the potential to be anyone that you want to be. You can strive to do better, and you will do better if you push yourself. Just because things suck right now, it doesn't mean they will always suck.
It's just like how high school was. I hated it. I was bullied constantly, I felt like life would never get better. Guess what, it did. My 2 brothers passed away, I thought I'd never be happy again, guess what, I am (although I think about them everyday). I was broke and living on the streets, I figured my life was worthless, guess what it wasn't.
Where were you 4 years ago? And are you doing better, worse, the same?