My Inspiration Passed Away

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TAIA
Aprill 17, 1994 - April 16, 2009

Fellow warriors, our little girl passed away on Thursday, April 16 just one day shy of her 15th birthday.

Taia was our constant companion and true warrior. She was tough as nails and never ever gave up. She sat with me by the computer for hours on end giving me the inspiration to keep on keeping on.

I apologize for using the Warrior Forum to eulogize her but she was a Lhasa Apso whose heritage is that of a guard dog for the monks in Tibet. Appropriately she was a gentle warrior.

As I held her during her last breaths I realized the courage our animal friends show and the passion they have for staying in the moment and doing everything they can do to the fullest.

The lesson for me is to honor her memory by staying strong, staying on purpose and never letting go of the "bone"!

Some of you will take offence to my using the forum this way and you can report me, others will take inspiration from what her passing is trying to convey.

May I share a Dog's Prayer with you?

To Those Who Love & Those Who Love Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go-
I have so many things to see and do.

You must not tie yourself to me with tears,

Be happy that we had so many years.

I gave you my love, you can only guess

How much you gave me in happiness.
I
thank you for the love you have each shown.

But now it is time I traveled alone.

So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must,

Then let your grief be comforted by trust,
It is only for a while that we must part,

So bless the memories within your heart,

I will not be far away, for life goes on,

So if you need me, call and I will come.

Though you can not see or touch me, I will be near.

And if you listen with your heart, you will hear

All my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and "Welcome Home".

Thanks to all the members who have been my friends since I joined. Thank you for helping me to honor my little Taia. I know this will pass but the tears are real.

Look to animals for real inspiration and your path will become clear.

True power is in the present moment - cherish it.

Sid
#inspiration #passed
  • Profile picture of the author strategic
    What a sweetie, and a true Muse to you by the look of her.

    My best bud Bruce was with me for 18 years, and despite loving my other furry kids since then, he will always have a very special place in my heart, and I hope I get to catch up with him again when I drop off my perch.

    And when the time comes (and it will..) to get a new buddy, make sure you rescue them from a dog shelter, maybe a mature mutt as they need rescuing more urgently than cute pups do.

    All the best to you and your loved ones, from me and mine

    - Helene

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  • Profile picture of the author John M Kane
    Sorry for your loss Sid.
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    • Profile picture of the author LynnM
      Heartfelt sympathy, Sid, from those of us who have pets and understand your grief.

      Lynn
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  • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
    Thank you all. I appreciate your reading about my little girl. The joy she brought will shine forever. I know the pain will pass somewhat and we will remember more of the great times and less of the sadness. I did not realize how huge a hole she would leave.

    If you have a pet - now would be a good time to give them a huge hug.

    Best always,

    Sid
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  • Profile picture of the author Biggy Fat
    I know how you must feel, man. I have lost some dogs too. To me they aren't just animals roaming around in my yard. They are family as well, and I love them with all my heart.

    Nothing will replace that pup you had, man. She was family to you and I will pray.
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  • Profile picture of the author aparadekto
    D'aww loosing a dog is sad, but once in a while you get to remember memories of playing time, laughter, company and love...
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  • Profile picture of the author Samsmiles
    Hi Sid

    I know just how you feel.

    In fact I was just about to write a post asking fellow warriors for some comfort when I came across yours.

    Six weeks ago I had two lovely black Labradors- Juno and her daughter Hebe. To day all I have are photographs and memories because they are both gone.

    Cancer killed them both. Juno was 13 and was living on borowed time. But Hebe was only 10 and had had what seemed a successful operation.

    On Monday last week she was fine, carrying home her usual large stick and when I say large they were large, sometimes the size of small trees!

    On Tuesday morning she fell sick, that afternoon she was gone.

    Like your little dog she was my insiration- snoring gently beside my desk- a calming sound when things were not going right.

    I went out walking yesterday, walking their usual trail and pretending to myself that they were behind me because they had found an unusual smell. Any minute now both would come bounding past... but of course they didn't.

    Thank you so much for the lovely poem. I send you this in return and hope it will help with your loss.

    "They are so much more straightforward and honest.
    They have no sort of pretensions.
    They live out their lives in a special way-
    They know the rules and the regulations.
    They live within the sphere of nature,
    They don't pretend they are god.
    They don't pretend they are intellegent.
    They don't invent nerve gas; and above all
    They don't hold cocktail parties."

    ..Gerald Durrell
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    • Profile picture of the author Nathan Hangen
      Thanks for sharing. I see no problem with it at all.
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      • Profile picture of the author usfemail
        Sorry For Your Loss! I sympathize with you as I have a furry little Pug named Mindy.

        We also have had a loss in the Family. It has been a little over a month ago that we lost a member of our family. She was a yellow Lab named Charlie. She was a joy to have and one of the gentlest dogs I have ever had.

        It was extremely sad to put her down; however I know that it was the best thing to do because she was not herself. We lost her due to liver failure.

        I hope your days get brighter.

        Susan
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  • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
    @Gerald - thanks so much for sharing and my empathy and sympathy to you too. The speed with which it happens is mind boggling. Her kidneys just gave out and looking at her distress it was the last loving thing I could do. My wife and I have stayed away from the house as it is just not the same - in fact I think it was her house :-)

    @Susan - thank you for sharing about Charlie. My sympathy to you too. I am so grateful that there are people that can see how special dogs (in fact all animals ) are and how much we can learn from them.

    I am grateful for all the wonderful memories and all the fun and loving times we shared and in time those memories will soothe the emptiness we feel this weekend.

    Sid
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  • Profile picture of the author Bruce NewMedia
    What a beautiful little dog....Sid, I'm so sorry for your loss. Years ago, my best friend got a Lhasa Apso and I always thought it was the greatest dog. :-)
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    Bruce
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    • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
      Originally Posted by brucerby View Post

      What a beautiful little dog....Sid, I'm so sorry for your loss. Years ago, my best friend got a Lhasa Apso and I always thought it was the greatest dog. :-)
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      Thank you Bruce, for taking time to tell me that. Best to you always.

      Sid
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      • Profile picture of the author Kay King
        What a sweet face!

        After I lost Sheba, a loving spirit who had been with me for 16 years my vet sent me a book called "dog heaven".

        It start out "When dogs go to Heaven, they don't need wings because God knows that dogs like running best" and ends "Dogs in heaven can stay forever. They will be there when old friends show up. They will be there at the door."

        kay
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        Saving one dog will not change the world - but the world will change forever for that one dog.
        It takes nothing away from a human to be kind to an animal.
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        • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
          Originally Posted by Kay King View Post

          What a sweet face!

          After I lost Sheba, a loving spirit who had been with me for 16 years my vet sent me a book called "dog heaven".

          It start out "When dogs go to Heaven, they don't need wings because God knows that dogs like running best" and ends "Dogs in heaven can stay forever. They will be there when old friends show up. They will be there at the door."

          kay
          Kay thank you for sharing such a sweet story. My every prayer is that it is true and we will be united again. My consolation right now is that she is free of burden of illness and pain and is truly able to be the sweet soul she showed us everyday in everyway.

          Sid
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  • Profile picture of the author Samsmiles
    Hi Sid,

    Found this in a paper at the week end.
    It has helped me in my loss and I hope it will help you too.

    It's an extract from a obituary written by a journalist about his colleague who died last week.

    "Death thinks a lot of itself, without good reason.
    It takes life but it can't subtract from it,
    can't touch that which came before.

    Death comes but once and in an instant is gone.
    Life is the thing, the stuff that endures.

    You might recollect how Elvis died,
    but listen to Mystery Train or Jail House Rock
    and death becomes a footnote'.

    -Steve Dennis

    We can substitute our dogs for the line about Elvis.
    We don't think of them dead but remember them
    bouncing around us, full of the pure joy of living.
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    • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
      Originally Posted by Samsmiles View Post

      Hi Sid,

      Found this in a paper at the week end.
      It has helped me in my loss and I hope it will help you too.

      It's an extract from a obituary written by a journalist about his colleague who died last week.

      "Death thinks a lot of itself, without good reason.
      It takes life but it can't subtract from it,
      can't touch that which came before.

      Death comes but once and in an instant is gone.
      Life is the thing, the stuff that endures.

      You might recollect how Elvis died,
      but listen to Mystery Train or Jail House Rock
      and death becomes a footnote'.

      -Steve Dennis

      We can substitute our dogs for the line about Elvis.
      We don't think of them dead but remember them
      bouncing around us, full of the pure joy of living.
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      Thank you. That is a different way to look at. And that is how I see her still. Appreciate it.

      Sid
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  • Profile picture of the author zeasondesign
    Hi, I feel very sympathy. I've lost dog too before and it's very hurt. I know how you feel
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  • Profile picture of the author Kezz
    Awww... She was gorgeous Sid, I really feel for you.

    We lost our 21 year old Border Collie, Rogue, last year, and we were devastated. It's still not the same without her. Being with them when they pass is one of the most difficult experiences you can have. Good on you for having the courage to be there though. Many people leave their doggies alone at the time when they need them most, and it was very good that you were there for her.

    There aren't many people who really get to experience the kind of bond you can have with a doggie. The love that they have for you is so pure that it's a kind of bond you can't even have with any human. They are so pure and innocent that they bring nothing but light into the world.

    We still have our 12 year old, who is beautiful. Like you said, having them there with you every day brings inspiration. Every time you look at them and they give you their wide eyed stare and doggie grin, you have to smile. They are a constant source of light and love in your life.

    Excuse me for posting a picture, but Roggy's face still makes me smile. Perhaps she might make you smile too.



    Rogue on the left. Storm, still with us, on the right.

    Hang in there Sid. Whilst it doesn't really pass altogether, because you always miss them, it does get a little easier day by day.
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  • Profile picture of the author Sid Kaplan
    @kezz thanks so much for sharing. They are both beautiful but then I have not met a dog yet that cannot make you smile.

    The last few weeks have been hard - pain, guilt, sorrow but they have been tempered by the memories of her love, her unique personality and the joy she gave always. You are right that there is a bond with them that defies description in just words.

    Your sharing made me realize that so many people go through this. I had to be with her at the end holding her, it was the only way to honor all she had given to us her entire life.

    Best to you always

    Sid
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