Financial difficulties lead to sacrifices

Hello World. Being in my worst depressed and almost broke state since 2001, I am forced to make a few sacrifices to make sure I at least have some money to recover and get back on my feet and get my head up. So next month, I am forced to cancel my internet connection (I pay my mom $45 every month to keep that on), which means I will be unable to work on my current IM projects (John/XFactor sites). But hey, the two XFactor sites I have now are doing pretty good in the SERPs: One site is as high as #5 on the first page and another is as high as #8 on the first page (both Google). And they're getting a few clicks. But because of me no longer having an internet connection, they will be neglected for a few months and maybe out of Google. But when I do come back, I'll be ready to tackle new XFactor style sites much harder (not that I wasn't doing them very hard to begin with).

I am also forced to cancel the insurance on my car (I currently pay $63 a month for that). My method of transportation will be what it was back in 2001 - my bike. I used to travel extremely long distances on my bike back in the day and now here I am eight years later having to do it again (and yes, I used to do it in the heat and in the cold). I'll have to get my bike fixed and ready to ride it again. I can also shed some pounds this way - something I need to do anyway.

Right now, I will have to be a full time plasma donor again (like I was between 2003 and 2005). It pays $60 a week right now, which equals $240 a month, but I'll also leave on my hosting ($10/month), my official music site ($20/month), and my gym membership ($10/month), leaving me with $190/month to at least get back on my feet with (which I'm estimating should happen in six months time, provided nothing happens to it or anything goes wrong on my end that I lose it forever). Getting a job is also an option, but due to the recession and the scarity of jobs in my area, that is an extremely difficult (if not impossible) task. Even the dead end jobs around (fast food, grocery, retail) jobs are all gone at the moment. I'll keep looking for something, but a job would get me back on my feet a lot faster than full time plasma donation would. Kinda weird coming from me since I AM anti-job, but desperate men do desperate things.

Rest assured I'm not giving up on IM or anything, just that I have to shut it down while I get back on my feet. I'd quickly run out of money at the state I am in now, and with nothing to fall back on I will go flat broke, which is what I am trying to avoid.

If anything at all, please pray for me during this difficult time. It will take me months (or even years), but only a miracle would save me from total disaster. I love the Warrior Forum and all the Warriors here, and I wouldn't leave it for nothing (I'll still post from a public library from time to time). Thank you and may God bless you all! He will get me through, I know he will!