Hello! Im New Here... My Intro And Story.
Firstly, im not sure if this thread is in the correct section. I did look for an "introductions" thread but couldn't find one.
I would like to introduce myself and tell you abit about me, i believe the more you know about me the more we can connect and speak on a level. So the more help i can give you and you can give me.
This may sound weird, but i am going to tell you most of whats been happening in my life, because i need to express it! My close friends and family know about me and my life but thats not enough for me, theres alot i need to get off my chest so i can begin focusing on moving forward and achieving my dreams!
So...
My name is Steven Bird. Im 18 years old and live in a town called Ipswich in the UK.
I have always been considered clever, and i now think of myself as a 'Teenage Genius' (hehe, i think im clever and the name sounds good lol, i might use this concept when writing eBooks). In my Year 6 SAT Exams at the end of Primary School, i was one of only 2 students to take 'Exension Papers'. My life was sweet. I was happy. Through to Year 9 SATs again i was one of a select few pupils to sit the 'Extension Papers'.
Then at the beginning of Year 10, i randomly met a girl who i had previously met like 3-4 years before randomly, who i fansied the pants off back then, and when i see her something clicked, it was like love at first sight honestly. At this time in my life i didn't have the confidence to just walk up to people, especially girls and start a convosation with them. But with this girl, something just came over me, i went over to her and spoke to her, i can't remember what i said exactly, i remember telling her how i remember seeing her years before and amazingly she remembered more of that time than i did! Wow! Not only that she gave me her number and all was good. This girl was one of the most popular and prettiest girls in my high school, i was haps! I called her that night and that was the begining of something special.
Anyway, me? I think i was born gifted, or i always believed that. In school and on the road, if i was taught something in any subject once, then i mastered it quickly and even went on to develope it and make it better or find better uses, i was on top of my game. I was one of the top students in nearly every sport and subject done at school. I was never one of the really 'popular' kids, but i knew all of them and they all liked and respected me, i just choose to hang with different people. Thats me, i learn quick, i use my head, i plan and develop, im so creative you wouldnt believe it!
So my life was looking set. My mum was nice, she was working hard and her husband (my step-dad) was working equally as hard, and they were gaining the things which was my mums Dream to have, a nice car, 3 bedroom house, conservitory and reguluar holidays. Thats all my mum ever dreamed of having, or owning. And they were well on there way to pay off the mortgage (well after like 15 years) so my mum could achieve her dream of owning a nice house so she wouldnt have to pay for it anymore.
At 14, my girlfriend at the time fell pregnant, and we decided to keep the baby. He was born May 7th 2005. (i was hoping it would be 2 days earlier just so his D.O.B would be 05/05/05 lol). I was with her throughout the 9 months, i went to every doctors or hospital appointment with her, she lived in with me at my mums now because her dad decided he hated her, he even offered to pay my mum £100 a week for her to have her! (He is rich, lives in a £750k property, earns in excess of £90k a year).
So yeah everything was good for me. Until two weeks after my Son was born.
Then, everything that could possably go wrong in my life, every bad thing that could happen, DID! I'll tell you it caught me off-gaurd, smacked me on to my arse, messed me up and kept me like that, until well Now!
The last 3 years of my life, i have been depressed, upset, not motivated atall, lazy, un-employed, have drunk alot, have smoked alot, haven't been eating properly, i haven't used my intellegence atall! Ive spent most of time working out 'life' in my head and secretly 'planning' to myself a thousand different ideas and plans in what im going to do in life when i get out of this depression.
Just so you know, in the last 3 years, this is whats happened : two weeks after my Son was born, his mother split up with me, decided she doesn't want me seeing my Son atall, and got with another guy! She has been and still is doing everything she can to stop me seeing my Son. I have been fighting her in the family court for 3 years (and even though im not good finacially or anything ive managed to be the 'role model' guy). She keeps lieing about me to stop me seeing my Son, for example, last year i had some half decent "contact" with my Son, i was seeing him alternating Weekends from Friday afternoon to Sunday afternoon at my mums where i live. Then babymother tells the courts she believes im taking drugs at the begininning of this year, so i agree to take a Drug Test for any drugs of her choice, the test took 3 months to be done, during that time, no contact. The drug test was for heroin, cocaine, amphetamines and canibus, it came back 100% clean. Then the next court appearence was booked for September, and i had 'contact' with my Son every other Sunday for 2hours in a supervised family center. The court date was then moved to yesterday! so another month without seeing my Son. In courts have given me her proposal, which is all im going to get for now, which is to see my Son alternating saturdays for 2 hours with my babymother present to supervise!! I agreed to it simply because i wouldnt get anything else yet, the uk system is f*cked like that believe me, however i instructed my solicitor to tell the judge that i agree, with alot of concern because of the sheer ammount of lies and allegations made by my babymum i know i could be blaintently setting myself up for trouble, however my top priorty is my Son and having a great time bonding with him and for him to have a whole load of fun, i also regonise the positive in the negative because there is a chance that this time could be also help develop some trust between me and my babymother. The judge said he "respects my maturity".
On top of this, my uncle died a year ago, the hospital killed him, it was front page news. I wont go into the details on that, i have already written loads here... oops.
My great auntie died also. I was very close to both my uncle and great auntie, more so than anyone else in my family.
My mum, who i am living with, is now in debt and really really struggling. Her husband lost his job about 18 months ago and the tw*t hasn't got one sinse, leaving everything to be paid for on my mums singular wage, which simply isnt enough! She's getting more and more in debt, and her dreams are slipping away from her.
On top of all this, what have i done for the last 3 years? Well i SHOULD have gotten a job and helped my mum out and buy some things to support my Son. I should have saved money towards opening a business and i SHOULD have studied things in my own time aswell. But nah, not me, because i haven't been me! Instead ive been some brain-dead fool who has been depressed and lazy, who just sat there and watched the world arround him fall apart.
BUT NOT ANYMORE! I have woken up recently (real recently) to how stupid i was being, i have realised that it wasnt "me" in the sense that "i am a very clever, creative, talented guy who will succeed in anything and everything i do". When i was depressed i looked back on the past, but i only looked back on the last 3 years which actually made me more depressed! Sinse, i looked back further, to when i was excellent at sport, when i was healthy, when i was clever, when i took my ideas and made them realitys and this has inspired me! I have so many ideas now you wouldnt understand. I am slowly but surely getting back onto my feet, i am starting to gain motivation again. I am starting to work on things.
Dont get me wrong. I am still in a really shit state. Right now im living with my mum, who is in debt, with little food in the cupboards. My income is £0, i get £46 a week "Income Support" but i give it straight to my mum, its the least i could do. But the point is: I HAVE GOT MY MIND BACK! And i think that is the singluar most important thing to have happened to me in my whole life. Sure my motivation is still kind of low, its HUGE when i talk about what i am going to do, but the reality is that its low but its building, i am doing constructive things now!
Right now, my clothes look like im some sort of tramp. Well most of them. I have no income, so i cant make money on that the 'ways' i used to. (hehe). But ive got my MIND BACK now. It feels to my like i was one person, a great individual, a true mastermind champion destined for success and greatness, then i turned into a nobody who was not worthy of anything and now this great individual is rushing back into me taking over my mind and body.
This is truely an exciting time for me because i have so many ideas and i know i will achieve my goals and succeed. Believe me, if anyone on this planet can 'do something if they put there minds to it' ITS ME!
So where do i go from here? Ive got my head back, lazyness is slowly but surely being driven out of me, what do i do?
I FOLLOW MY DREAMS IN A CLEVER WAY!
I had an idea, to write down everything i want to achieve in life. It was surposed to be a small basic list i could carry with me to remind me of the targets so whereever i was or whatever i was doing i could look at this list and know what the focus was. Well this list turned out to be a big one. When most people leave school or college or whatever and they are asked 'What do you want to do? (with your life)', most of them 'dont know'. Well my problem is the exact opposite, there is so much i want to do! But i am not going to see this as a bad thing, i will do it all believe me.
What do i want to do?
Ultimatly i want to live a happy family life with my Son, i want my Mum to achieve her dreams and be happy and i want myself to be successfull. Also, I want to : Own A Few Of My Own Lucrative Business's, Become Grandmaster or Highly Skilled in a few Martial Arts (Ninjisu, Wing Chun, Brazillian Ju Jitsu), Take Part In Alot Of Sports (Mainly Boxing, Parkour, Football and Basketball), I Want To Become A Well Know GRIME MC/Producer/Designer (all 3, MC mainly for my need to express). I Want To Become A Successfull Internet Marketer and Write Some World Class eBooks Teaching My Knowledge, I Want To Invent Organisasions For The Things I Enjoy And Are Good At So Others Can Be Part Of A Community And Improve, I Want To Sell Designs and Art. Plus I Want To Make Money Off Most Of The Things I Do (like designs, eBooks, martial arts, music, business's). I want to do it all. I reckonise NOTHING will happen over night, no it will take years, 10s of years, thousands of hours. But i now have my MIND BACK - so thats NOT A PROBLEM!
So Where Did I Tell Myself I Was Going To Start?
I already knew about this forum, it has a great reputation. I decided i would 1st join this forum, tell my life story so people know who i am and what im really about, and learn about internet marketing. I want to start my first eBook asap, i have thought of a few niches already. I have applied to go onto a Media cource at a local studio/clubhouse which i have been accepted for, which starts somepoint in the first two weeks of November, the cource covers Recording Music (MC), Music Production (making beats on a wide vierty of programs and cross-programs) and Design (Website, Advertisements, Photo Editing, Magazine etc.) Which is great, thats my seeds planted there... (Most of the Design stuff i will already know but still theres always things to be learnt). Going to this cource will also give me £30 EMA (Educational Maitenance Allowance) which i am going to SAVE and put towards constructive purposes, and which i will spend on my Son when i see him. I am going to try and Quit Smoking and Drinking. I have set a quit day for Saturday and i have got hold of patches. Saturday is the day i will see my son and babymother, my plan for that is to go all out 110% focus on having as much fun as i can with my son.
I have found some local clubs which do Boxing lessons at only £2 a session. Its at a youth center, not a top club. And Wing Chun lessons at a dojo for £6. So i will be looking into them over the next few months. Until them i am going to focus on getting myself in shape.
I will also focus on studying now : NLP, Phycology, English, Maths, Science, Geography, History, Art, Design, Music, Athletics, Internet Marketing and Business Studies.
So where do i go from here.... UP.
This is me and my life. Now you know all about me. Well most of it!
Im Steven Bird. Newest member of the Warrior Forums. Nice to meet you. I hope i can make some good friends on here and devlop some great relationships.
Thanks for taking all this time to read over my life story. Im sorry for that.
Yours,
Ninja. Teenage Genius (lol).
I would like to introduce myself and tell you abit about me, i believe the more you know about me the more we can connect and speak on a level. So the more help i can give you and you can give me.
This may sound weird, but i am going to tell you most of whats been happening in my life, because i need to express it! My close friends and family know about me and my life but thats not enough for me, theres alot i need to get off my chest so i can begin focusing on moving forward and achieving my dreams!
So...
My name is Steven Bird. Im 18 years old and live in a town called Ipswich in the UK.
I have always been considered clever, and i now think of myself as a 'Teenage Genius' (hehe, i think im clever and the name sounds good lol, i might use this concept when writing eBooks). In my Year 6 SAT Exams at the end of Primary School, i was one of only 2 students to take 'Exension Papers'. My life was sweet. I was happy. Through to Year 9 SATs again i was one of a select few pupils to sit the 'Extension Papers'.
Then at the beginning of Year 10, i randomly met a girl who i had previously met like 3-4 years before randomly, who i fansied the pants off back then, and when i see her something clicked, it was like love at first sight honestly. At this time in my life i didn't have the confidence to just walk up to people, especially girls and start a convosation with them. But with this girl, something just came over me, i went over to her and spoke to her, i can't remember what i said exactly, i remember telling her how i remember seeing her years before and amazingly she remembered more of that time than i did! Wow! Not only that she gave me her number and all was good. This girl was one of the most popular and prettiest girls in my high school, i was haps! I called her that night and that was the begining of something special.
Anyway, me? I think i was born gifted, or i always believed that. In school and on the road, if i was taught something in any subject once, then i mastered it quickly and even went on to develope it and make it better or find better uses, i was on top of my game. I was one of the top students in nearly every sport and subject done at school. I was never one of the really 'popular' kids, but i knew all of them and they all liked and respected me, i just choose to hang with different people. Thats me, i learn quick, i use my head, i plan and develop, im so creative you wouldnt believe it!
So my life was looking set. My mum was nice, she was working hard and her husband (my step-dad) was working equally as hard, and they were gaining the things which was my mums Dream to have, a nice car, 3 bedroom house, conservitory and reguluar holidays. Thats all my mum ever dreamed of having, or owning. And they were well on there way to pay off the mortgage (well after like 15 years) so my mum could achieve her dream of owning a nice house so she wouldnt have to pay for it anymore.
At 14, my girlfriend at the time fell pregnant, and we decided to keep the baby. He was born May 7th 2005. (i was hoping it would be 2 days earlier just so his D.O.B would be 05/05/05 lol). I was with her throughout the 9 months, i went to every doctors or hospital appointment with her, she lived in with me at my mums now because her dad decided he hated her, he even offered to pay my mum £100 a week for her to have her! (He is rich, lives in a £750k property, earns in excess of £90k a year).
So yeah everything was good for me. Until two weeks after my Son was born.
Then, everything that could possably go wrong in my life, every bad thing that could happen, DID! I'll tell you it caught me off-gaurd, smacked me on to my arse, messed me up and kept me like that, until well Now!
The last 3 years of my life, i have been depressed, upset, not motivated atall, lazy, un-employed, have drunk alot, have smoked alot, haven't been eating properly, i haven't used my intellegence atall! Ive spent most of time working out 'life' in my head and secretly 'planning' to myself a thousand different ideas and plans in what im going to do in life when i get out of this depression.
Just so you know, in the last 3 years, this is whats happened : two weeks after my Son was born, his mother split up with me, decided she doesn't want me seeing my Son atall, and got with another guy! She has been and still is doing everything she can to stop me seeing my Son. I have been fighting her in the family court for 3 years (and even though im not good finacially or anything ive managed to be the 'role model' guy). She keeps lieing about me to stop me seeing my Son, for example, last year i had some half decent "contact" with my Son, i was seeing him alternating Weekends from Friday afternoon to Sunday afternoon at my mums where i live. Then babymother tells the courts she believes im taking drugs at the begininning of this year, so i agree to take a Drug Test for any drugs of her choice, the test took 3 months to be done, during that time, no contact. The drug test was for heroin, cocaine, amphetamines and canibus, it came back 100% clean. Then the next court appearence was booked for September, and i had 'contact' with my Son every other Sunday for 2hours in a supervised family center. The court date was then moved to yesterday! so another month without seeing my Son. In courts have given me her proposal, which is all im going to get for now, which is to see my Son alternating saturdays for 2 hours with my babymother present to supervise!! I agreed to it simply because i wouldnt get anything else yet, the uk system is f*cked like that believe me, however i instructed my solicitor to tell the judge that i agree, with alot of concern because of the sheer ammount of lies and allegations made by my babymum i know i could be blaintently setting myself up for trouble, however my top priorty is my Son and having a great time bonding with him and for him to have a whole load of fun, i also regonise the positive in the negative because there is a chance that this time could be also help develop some trust between me and my babymother. The judge said he "respects my maturity".
On top of this, my uncle died a year ago, the hospital killed him, it was front page news. I wont go into the details on that, i have already written loads here... oops.
My great auntie died also. I was very close to both my uncle and great auntie, more so than anyone else in my family.
My mum, who i am living with, is now in debt and really really struggling. Her husband lost his job about 18 months ago and the tw*t hasn't got one sinse, leaving everything to be paid for on my mums singular wage, which simply isnt enough! She's getting more and more in debt, and her dreams are slipping away from her.
On top of all this, what have i done for the last 3 years? Well i SHOULD have gotten a job and helped my mum out and buy some things to support my Son. I should have saved money towards opening a business and i SHOULD have studied things in my own time aswell. But nah, not me, because i haven't been me! Instead ive been some brain-dead fool who has been depressed and lazy, who just sat there and watched the world arround him fall apart.
BUT NOT ANYMORE! I have woken up recently (real recently) to how stupid i was being, i have realised that it wasnt "me" in the sense that "i am a very clever, creative, talented guy who will succeed in anything and everything i do". When i was depressed i looked back on the past, but i only looked back on the last 3 years which actually made me more depressed! Sinse, i looked back further, to when i was excellent at sport, when i was healthy, when i was clever, when i took my ideas and made them realitys and this has inspired me! I have so many ideas now you wouldnt understand. I am slowly but surely getting back onto my feet, i am starting to gain motivation again. I am starting to work on things.
Dont get me wrong. I am still in a really shit state. Right now im living with my mum, who is in debt, with little food in the cupboards. My income is £0, i get £46 a week "Income Support" but i give it straight to my mum, its the least i could do. But the point is: I HAVE GOT MY MIND BACK! And i think that is the singluar most important thing to have happened to me in my whole life. Sure my motivation is still kind of low, its HUGE when i talk about what i am going to do, but the reality is that its low but its building, i am doing constructive things now!
Right now, my clothes look like im some sort of tramp. Well most of them. I have no income, so i cant make money on that the 'ways' i used to. (hehe). But ive got my MIND BACK now. It feels to my like i was one person, a great individual, a true mastermind champion destined for success and greatness, then i turned into a nobody who was not worthy of anything and now this great individual is rushing back into me taking over my mind and body.
This is truely an exciting time for me because i have so many ideas and i know i will achieve my goals and succeed. Believe me, if anyone on this planet can 'do something if they put there minds to it' ITS ME!
So where do i go from here? Ive got my head back, lazyness is slowly but surely being driven out of me, what do i do?
I FOLLOW MY DREAMS IN A CLEVER WAY!
I had an idea, to write down everything i want to achieve in life. It was surposed to be a small basic list i could carry with me to remind me of the targets so whereever i was or whatever i was doing i could look at this list and know what the focus was. Well this list turned out to be a big one. When most people leave school or college or whatever and they are asked 'What do you want to do? (with your life)', most of them 'dont know'. Well my problem is the exact opposite, there is so much i want to do! But i am not going to see this as a bad thing, i will do it all believe me.
What do i want to do?
Ultimatly i want to live a happy family life with my Son, i want my Mum to achieve her dreams and be happy and i want myself to be successfull. Also, I want to : Own A Few Of My Own Lucrative Business's, Become Grandmaster or Highly Skilled in a few Martial Arts (Ninjisu, Wing Chun, Brazillian Ju Jitsu), Take Part In Alot Of Sports (Mainly Boxing, Parkour, Football and Basketball), I Want To Become A Well Know GRIME MC/Producer/Designer (all 3, MC mainly for my need to express). I Want To Become A Successfull Internet Marketer and Write Some World Class eBooks Teaching My Knowledge, I Want To Invent Organisasions For The Things I Enjoy And Are Good At So Others Can Be Part Of A Community And Improve, I Want To Sell Designs and Art. Plus I Want To Make Money Off Most Of The Things I Do (like designs, eBooks, martial arts, music, business's). I want to do it all. I reckonise NOTHING will happen over night, no it will take years, 10s of years, thousands of hours. But i now have my MIND BACK - so thats NOT A PROBLEM!
So Where Did I Tell Myself I Was Going To Start?
I already knew about this forum, it has a great reputation. I decided i would 1st join this forum, tell my life story so people know who i am and what im really about, and learn about internet marketing. I want to start my first eBook asap, i have thought of a few niches already. I have applied to go onto a Media cource at a local studio/clubhouse which i have been accepted for, which starts somepoint in the first two weeks of November, the cource covers Recording Music (MC), Music Production (making beats on a wide vierty of programs and cross-programs) and Design (Website, Advertisements, Photo Editing, Magazine etc.) Which is great, thats my seeds planted there... (Most of the Design stuff i will already know but still theres always things to be learnt). Going to this cource will also give me £30 EMA (Educational Maitenance Allowance) which i am going to SAVE and put towards constructive purposes, and which i will spend on my Son when i see him. I am going to try and Quit Smoking and Drinking. I have set a quit day for Saturday and i have got hold of patches. Saturday is the day i will see my son and babymother, my plan for that is to go all out 110% focus on having as much fun as i can with my son.
I have found some local clubs which do Boxing lessons at only £2 a session. Its at a youth center, not a top club. And Wing Chun lessons at a dojo for £6. So i will be looking into them over the next few months. Until them i am going to focus on getting myself in shape.
I will also focus on studying now : NLP, Phycology, English, Maths, Science, Geography, History, Art, Design, Music, Athletics, Internet Marketing and Business Studies.
So where do i go from here.... UP.
This is me and my life. Now you know all about me. Well most of it!
Im Steven Bird. Newest member of the Warrior Forums. Nice to meet you. I hope i can make some good friends on here and devlop some great relationships.
Thanks for taking all this time to read over my life story. Im sorry for that.
Yours,
Ninja. Teenage Genius (lol).