I killed a dog last night - not just any dog either. I've been taking care of this Jack Russell for two months while his owner's home was placed on a permanent foundation. She finally was able to start moving in last night.
The home is only a few blocks away so I thought I would help her out and take Diogi to her. Had his treats and everything with me - he's gone for several short car trips with me so had no concerns.
The house is on a small gravel street so I watching for potholes and her home was the next house on the left. The window on the passenger side was half way down (normal when he's in the car) and suddenly the dog jumped through it - and right under the car.
I was in shock and when I jumped out and saw him I started screaming. I've been beating myself up since last night thinking of what I should have done or could have done. He had a leash on but I wasn't holding it - the window should have been closed, I should have been watching his body language, etc. But nothing changes what happened. He was an extremely fast little dog and I think he realized he was almost home and in the excitement he jumped out. I feel so guilty and stupid.
I promised Shandy I'd keep him safe and to have this happen 50 yards from his home just killed me. I still can't wrap my mind around it but I understand now how people say "it happened in an instant".