I don't think I fear rejection THAT much. Debt and financial ruin doesn't even seem to get me going. It's like I'm waiting to be "saved" from this. Ridiculous.
Writing this post makes me sick. Yet it needs to be done! And the goal is not to rant, but to be solution oriented as I'm sure many are going through that right now, and some of you might have been there yet have triumphed.
Some possible solutions:
Find really better goals and imprint them in my mind.
And link those goals to action.
I have made these calculations many time. It should be VERY convincing yet as it's been a while since I've had success, it's like I don't believe it the numbers. Will still be useful once I get going.
The same with goals. Until you achieve some or something special, they seem so unreal emotionally, even if they are all plausible to a rational mind. It's like I can't get emotionally driven with them as I should be.
Find partners - stop being alone.
I think that's the #1 issue here. Lack of accountability for one, and all successful athletes, sales people businessmen etc. I see are in a good environment, not working alone from home. (Though I think if I get momentum through a winning environment than I will get results too by myself. Question of habits)
To this end:
I will try to hire salespeople. As I train them, I have to be active. I have to be man up and show how it's done to them. I have to get results in front of them.
In the meantime, I have to do something! It's eating me up. I can't believe how cowardly I am! Maybe I should contact other people working by themselves in non-competitng fields just so we do it. Damn I'm disappointed in myself