Will I survive in this world? + I'm not giving up on Internet Marketing.

I lost over $400 dollars this year due to internet marketing with no successful sales.. Ebay took $142 out of my bank account because they thought I was selling 10 items, but I didn't even sell the 10 items, I am trying my best to get this money back. I dispute a charge, I waited almost 10 days, and they said there was no evidence, but I am not giving up. This is even worst then last year. Everything for me is getting worst year after year, but the good news is, I am gaining more experience on the internet. I don't have a family, and I will try to apply for a disabled home soon, if one exist in Atlanta, US. I am 20 years old, I have been applying for jobs since I was 15 and no one will hire me. From retail to fast food, no one will hire me. Everyday, I see thousands of people around my age that have phones and driver licenses, I don't believe I will ever make it that far. I get when people say you can be happy with nothing and stick with your family. But I don't have any relatives to care about, they just like to phyical and emotionaly abuse me, and I get threated to get put out. They call the police on me plenty of times, but I need to find a place immediately before it is too late. I just want to run away from them, and pretend they never exisited. I know the illegal activities they have done that could lead them to prison for a long time, such as bad checks, signing other people's bills without permission, illegal firearms, and child cruety (not me, another person). I am stronger then that, I would never let do that to me, I have already had enough in life. I have the papper work and proof about the illegal activities they have done, they don't even know that I have the papper work. this will be my ultimate revenge yet.

It is impossible for me to do freelancing. On freelancer.com, odesk.com, guru.com, vworker.com, and elance.com, people are bidding on jobs against 50 people. This is ridiculious. When I go on classifieds to do gigs, no one reply to me back. There is one hope I have left, I still have my two website left, I will add content and monitize them. But I know the mistakes that I have done, I know how to not waste so much money agian. I hope I get my money back from Ebay by the time my HostGator bill is due. Next year, I will live off of survey websites such as Cashcrate, InboxDollars, SendEarnings, Fusion Cash (one time only), etc. I know plenty more, just ask me. You are all were wondering, how do I have access to a pc? Because I go to a free library, but they don't give you much time. People tell me to use Fiverr, but I don't have a camera.

How will I be able to survive in this world? I'm not giving up on Internet Marketing. I will start low, like continue my HostGator account for only $10 dollars a month. I will not waste money on other things I have done. The two websites that I made are also my small business. I will try SSI and SSDI, but I don't know when to get started. I do have 3 social disorders. I have been to the thread, "What to do if you are desprate?" But which post should I stick with the most? Am I cured with bad luck or something?

By the way, I'm sorry if I broke any rules, I try my best to avoid that of all times.