Performance Urge
Hello Guys,
I just came back from a four day vacation in which I have read 'The 4-Hour Work Week' by Tim Ferriss. I found it to be very eye-opening and after reading it I felt very relaxed and at ease with myself, which doesn't happen often. For about two days I just enjoyed things that happened and had an amazing time. I stopped worrying about making money because I felt and still feel really sure that I'll find a way to make a living wihout too much trouble.
Now, at home, I expected to continue this 'way of life' for lack of a better description. And to some degree, I do, I'm not too concerned about what I want to do to make money anymore. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to set up an internet marketing business that runs on autopilot that I can live off. The thing is, though, that I now find myself unable to enjoy things that seem to be pointless or just for fun. The urge to perform is now back again and I absolutely hate it. I can't play any video game without thinking "I should train harder and try to become the best in the world". If I go karting I find myself thinking that I'm wasting my time and should get out of the kart or decide that I want to be a professional Formula 1 driver. And, yes, it's really that 'ambitious'.
Something that makes it even worse is that I start to dislike things the second they have to be done, even if I have to do it according to myself. When I feel like I have to start up a company, I don't want to. When the pressure is off, I am dying to get busy and start a company.
I'm probably going to come across as a complete twat for saying this but another factor that makes everything worse is that I'm quite talented at almost everything I do. I am an incredibly fast learner and as soon as I see that I'm better than my peers the performance urge kicks in twice as hard.
I feel the urge to be the best (and by that I mean world's best) at everything I do and it's spoiling quite a lot of fun. I'm only 17 years old at the moment and am really afraid this performance urge is going to rule my life.
Any tips or experiences with the same would be very much
Thanks so much in advance,
Tejabuu
I just came back from a four day vacation in which I have read 'The 4-Hour Work Week' by Tim Ferriss. I found it to be very eye-opening and after reading it I felt very relaxed and at ease with myself, which doesn't happen often. For about two days I just enjoyed things that happened and had an amazing time. I stopped worrying about making money because I felt and still feel really sure that I'll find a way to make a living wihout too much trouble.
Now, at home, I expected to continue this 'way of life' for lack of a better description. And to some degree, I do, I'm not too concerned about what I want to do to make money anymore. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to set up an internet marketing business that runs on autopilot that I can live off. The thing is, though, that I now find myself unable to enjoy things that seem to be pointless or just for fun. The urge to perform is now back again and I absolutely hate it. I can't play any video game without thinking "I should train harder and try to become the best in the world". If I go karting I find myself thinking that I'm wasting my time and should get out of the kart or decide that I want to be a professional Formula 1 driver. And, yes, it's really that 'ambitious'.
Something that makes it even worse is that I start to dislike things the second they have to be done, even if I have to do it according to myself. When I feel like I have to start up a company, I don't want to. When the pressure is off, I am dying to get busy and start a company.
I'm probably going to come across as a complete twat for saying this but another factor that makes everything worse is that I'm quite talented at almost everything I do. I am an incredibly fast learner and as soon as I see that I'm better than my peers the performance urge kicks in twice as hard.
I feel the urge to be the best (and by that I mean world's best) at everything I do and it's spoiling quite a lot of fun. I'm only 17 years old at the moment and am really afraid this performance urge is going to rule my life.
Any tips or experiences with the same would be very much
Thanks so much in advance,
Tejabuu