That's what I keep telling myself.

The fact is, it is,indeed.

I keep looking to outside causes for my miseries. Always blaming the actions of others, or just plain "karma".

Truth is , I am where I am today due to MY choices.
Of course there have been circumstances beyond my control, Lifes little anomalies that would happen no matter what choices I make.Even though some are actual results of my actions.Yes,some accidents would have happened no matter what, there is no doubt that a small number of them could have been avoided.

How? By the choices I made. I am accountable.

In my perpetual quest for knowledge, as far as the "why?","What can I do?",
"Who has the answers?", I have had an epiphany...

ME!

I know me better than anyone. I now understand that ALL answers are right between the ears. I have the power to change ME.

That doesn't mean I wont listen to others, or study the different methods that others have used successfully.

It just means that I must make better choices. Write a better script.

It will not be easy. I have to overcome years,decades,of choices that put me here.

I have no other choice.