Something to think about.
There is a method that will help all who are in any kind of conundrum as to whether God exists or not. I use the word "God" only as a sufficient word. The meaning I try to show is that of "creator of all things".
Try this whenever you can today - it's very easy.
Do whatever makes you comfortable to offer prayer or try to communicate.
As an alternative, simply sit or stand and hold your hands palms upwards.
and ask the question along the following lines:
"please give me a sign that you exist"
I absolutely guarantee that it will be answered.
But please bare one thing in mind. The way that your question is answered is not always the way you think or expect. Please keep an open mind...
Thank-you for reading.