P.S. I swear I never realized I rewarded myself for bad behavior. I don't want to be on my death bed with that on my conscious.
P.P.S. I read that we should write things down, and, have someone we can talk to. Well since I have noone, I was wondering if anyone here has a skype group or messenger chat that wants to try some form of accountability partnering. I am open to it. Let me know